in Something I Don’t Know (Verse 1) The shadows are heavy on the bedroom wallThe ceiling is high and I feel so smallI turn off the lamp, let the darkness arriveJust trying to feel like I’m safely aliveThe window is locked but the cold gets insideThe place where my secrets and promises diedMy room is a cavern, an empty black seaAnd there’s nobody here who is looking for me (Verse 2) Alone in the quiet, alone in the grayWith nothing to hold and with nothing to sayThe silence is loud and it rings in my earsA visual map of my absolute fearsNo calls on my phone and no steps on the floorNobody is ever gonna walk through that doorJust space in the corners where memories growAnd I am just lost in something I don’t kno .(Verse 3) But then in the dark, I feel a soft furA gentle reminder, a comforting purrMy cat is the only one here by my sideThe only witness to the tears I have criedHe steps on my chest and he looks in my eyesHe doesn't ask questions, he tells me no liesA tiny warm heartbeat in this freezing placeStaring so softly at my broken face. (Chorus) And I’m falling apart in the middle of the nightSearching for answers but there’s no one in sightYeah, I’m sinking so deep where the cold shadows growCompletely detached, completely aloneJust wandering blind, moving so slowLost in something I don’t know. (Verse 4) The bad thoughts are coming, they crowd in my headThey tell me the things that I wish were unsaidThey bring back the ghosts of the people who leftLeaving my chest so completely bereftI think of the failures, the time that I lostI think of the love and how much it has costThe sad things are spinning, they won't let me sleepThe promises made that I just couldn't keep. (Verse 5) The burning gets heavy, it hurts in my throatI’m drowning out here and I don’t have a boatSo I drag my weak feet across the cold floorTo lock myself tight behind the bathroom doorI sit on the tiles, my knees to my chestDesperately begging for my brain to just restThe tears start to spill and they run down my chinLetting the misery finally win. (Verse 6) I look in the mirror through water and painLike watching the world through a window of rainMy eyes are so red and my breathing is roughWondering why I am never enoughThe sink is so cold but my forehead is hotDwellling on things that I am and am notI weep in the corner, invisible tearsScreaming inside at the passing of years. (Chorus) And I’m falling apart in the middle of the nightSearching for answers but there’s no one in sightYeah, I’m sinking so deep where the cold shadows growCompletely detached, completely aloneJust wandering blind, moving so slowLost in something I don’t know. (Verse 7) I walk back to bed but the fever is thereThis heavy oppression in the midnight airThe world outside is frozen and deadBut a suffocating heat is burning my headMy heat doesn't leave, it just stays in my skinAn emotional fire that is trapped deep withinIt glows in the dark like an angry old sparkLeaving a permanent, painful black mark. (Verse 8) My cat comes back over and lies on my armTrying so hard to protect me from harmThe darkness is absolute, heavy, and deepAnd I close my eyes but I know I won’t sleepI’m just an empty shell sitting right hereHolding my breath as the mornings appearThe fever remains and the silence will growAnd I’m still just lost in something I don’t know. (Outro) In my dark room...With nothing and no one.Just my cat by my side...And the tears that won't dry.The bathroom floor is cold.But my heat won't go away.Lost...In something I don't know.
