In the quiet after midnight When the room won’t let me sleep Your name still breaks the surface Of thoughts I try to keep I’ve been walking through the margins Between okay and gone Every step feels borrowed Every breath feels wrong I’m caught inside myself Trying to outrun the noise I tell myself it’s nothing But it’s pulling me apart Guess it’s all in my head Waiting for the moment I don’t have to pretend Reaching for a way out Reaching for an end Waiting for the moment I don’t have to pretend Why don’t you turn the page And make me feel like I’m whole again? I move through days unfocused Like I’m here but not involved My hands are always shaking From the things I never solved My body keeps the record Of every word I said I feel it in my posture I feel it in my head I keep biting down on silence Like it owes me something back I’m never where I am I’m never what I need The cold settles in And it stays with me I walk through broken hours Careful not to bleed The pain goes quiet But it never leaves Waiting for the moment I don’t have to pretend Reaching for a way out Reaching for an end Waiting for the moment I don’t have to pretend Why don’t you turn the page And make me feel like I’m whole again? Run with me through everything I don’t know how to face Don’t let me disappear Inside the space I take I learned to carry damage Before I learned my name Still standing in the rain Still calling out the same Waiting for the moment I don’t have to pretend Why don’t you turn the page And make me feel like I’m whole again?