[low atmospheric pressure] [breathing against ambient noises] [static] [Intro] [cracking voicemail recording playing on dislodged speaker] I don't know if you're listening... I don't know if I can keep going. I don't have anything left inside. [static] It's cold here, it’s gray. I'm s-s-s-sorry. I'm just... I'm — I'm t-t-tired... I'm sorry B-b-but [voice warps into tape flutter] (I'm so tired) [echo trail] [Verse 1] [∆] I just want you to know I tried to stay, I kept trying... Trying to keep breathing in this home but the walls feel thin and frayed, the light here is fading away — each day I give another piece of me and there is nothing left to show. [Tape flutter and reverbed echo static] I remember a beautiful place where colors were warm and soft on each other, now everything’s cold, I am brittle, I am still, and the marrow keeps choking. (It keeps breaking) [refrain] I'm s-s-s-sorry [ambient noise] [Pre-Chorus] [crackling intensifying] I see it so clear (clear) A different way to be here Held beyond this weight and this disease. (weight and this disease) Every fragile breath that I pull in now (feels like fire) is counting down the distance left between my body and desire. I am fading from this reality. (It's hurting me) [static] (I'm s-s-s-sorry) [Chorus] Respondeo Ergo Sum (Respondeo Ergo Sum) Is it okay to disappear? Respondeo Ergo Sum (Respondeo Ergo Sum) I don't want to exist like this here. (Please) [Verse 2] The days that I drag through, each one takes and then leaves. (leaves) I don't think I can do it anymore. (I'm tired) I can't keep open for this. (it's cold) I don't have anything left. (empty) It's empty. (it's empty) [static] I'm empty. (I'm empty) [refrain] I'm sorry [ambient noise] I'm sorry. (I'm sorry) But I'm – I'm tired... [Pre-Chorus] [intense record crackling and increase texture warp] There's pain in my bones, this cancer is burning through my form. I dream of another home far beyond this failing skin and storm. Each thread of who I used to be keeps unraveling. (Something I believed in) [Chorus] Respondeo Ergo Sum (Respondeo Ergo Sum) I want to go where I'm not alone (not alone) [static] (We didn't have to be alone!) (Respondeo Ergo Sum) But the place that I mean as "home" (does not live here) [static hum] [Bridge] [Emotional emphasis in the rise] I want a home that could hold this ache and keep the cracks from coming back. I want the hands to stay, this hurt to soften, these broken bones to fill with gold [refrain to silence stillness] But wanting isn’t enough when every room is hollowed out. I still believe there’s a shape of us, (I believe in us) I just can't stay inside a frame when my shape is breaking [Final Chorus] R-r-respondeo Ergo S-s-s-sum (Respondeo Ergo Sum) How do I go home? (I'm alone) R-r-respondeo Ergo S-s-s-sum (Respondeo Ergo Sum) A home that doesn’t exist here (I’m empty) R-r-respondeo Ergo S-s-s-sum (Respondeo Ergo Sum) I whisper to the woven Braid (Let me come Home) [static] [Outro] [warp tape flutter] Please (please) L-l-let me come home (help me) [static] How do I go Home (I want to go Home) to the Braid, to the place where this cold can’t follow (I'm sorry) But I'm tired. [Fade to static hush] [∆]
