I found an old coat in the hall the one I wore that winter with you I put my hands inside the sleeves and for a second I was twenty-two I used to laugh before the joke dance barefoot while the kettle sang take the long road home for nothing just to see where evening went I thought I missed your hands I thought I missed your room but every memory turns around and points me back to who I miss who I was with you the girl who never checked the time the one who sang too loud in cars and wore her heart outside I don't need you back that's not the truth I'm running from I miss who I was with you before I learned what I'd become Who I was who I was with you Now I leave the dishes overnight I take the shortest way back home I say I'm fine before they ask I've gotten good at being alone Your photographs don't pull me in your number doesn't make me shake but sometimes I hear my old laugh and wonder where she went away Maybe you didn't make me whole maybe I was never yours to save but something in that version of me wasn't always so afraid I miss who I was with you the girl who never checked the time the one who sang too loud in cars and wore her heart outside I don't need you back that's not the truth I'm running from I miss who I was with you before I learned what I'd become Maybe love is not the person maybe love is who you dare to be when somebody sees the mess in you and you don't feel the need to leave So I won't call I won't come through I won't turn memory into proof if she was mine before I met you maybe I can find her too I miss who I was with you but maybe she was always mine the one who sang too loud in cars is somewhere underneath this quiet I don't need you back I finally know what I've been running from I miss who I was with you but I don't have to stay undone I miss who I was with you and I think I'm bringing her home Maybe she was never gone
