Left On Read

“Still Chose Not to See Me” Verse 1 I type out what I’m feeling, then I kill it in the draft Like maybe if I hide it, it won’t cut me in half I don’t wanna sound needy, don’t wanna beg you to care So I swallow the confession and pretend it isn’t there I stare at my phone like it owes me a sign Like three little dots could keep me alive But they show up, disappear, leave me here with the truth I was reaching for someone who was never reaching too I know everybody’s tired, I know life gets loud But I’ve been screaming underwater while you’re walking around And I hate that I’m this hurt by a screen going black But it feels like a door when you don’t answer back Pre-Chorus I don’t need a rescue I don’t need a crowd I just needed one voice To pull me out I don’t need forever Just a reason to believe That when I fall apart Somebody notices me Chorus You read me You received me I was breaking completely I sent you my heart And you still didn’t see me Everybody needs me When they’re down on their knees But when I’m the one bleeding They’re suddenly busy Don’t say you love me Don’t say that you mean it If I gave you my pain And you still couldn’t see it Still chose not to see me Still chose not to see me Verse 2 I know all their birthdays, their ghosts, and their scars Their late-night breakdowns, their wrecked little hearts I show up with patience, with silence, with grace I remember the pain that they hide on their face But when I go missing, nobody checks the room Guess I made being strong look easy to do Guess I laughed too loud, guess I joked too well Guess I decorated heaven while I lived inside hell And I’m tired of being useful, tired of being kind Tired of saving everybody while I’m losing my mind Tired of being the lighthouse no one sails back to Tired of being the person they cry through, then lose Pre-Chorus 2 I don’t need a hero I don’t need applause I just need somebody To see me when I pause I don’t need the whole world Just one heart that stays When my smile starts cracking And I can’t fake okay Chorus You read me You received me I was breaking completely I sent you my heart And you still didn’t see me Everybody needs me When they’re down on their knees But when I’m the one bleeding They’re suddenly busy Don’t say you love me Don’t say that you mean it If I gave you my pain And you still couldn’t see it Still chose not to see me Still chose not to see me Bridge There’s no more voices in my head I think I scared them all out Even my demons got tired Of hearing me shout We all got problems I just bleed mine loud You bury yours quiet I drag mine through the crowd And maybe that’s the reason People turn away Nobody wants the truth When it’s begging them to stay So I laugh like armor And I joke like a gun But the punchline is loaded And I’m not having fun I’m not asking for worship I’m not asking for much Just one person who notices When I’m coming undone Final Chorus You read me You received me I was breaking completely I sent you my heart And you still didn’t see me Everybody needs me When they’re down on their knees But when I’m the one bleeding They’re suddenly busy Don’t say you love me Don’t say that you mean it If I gave you my pain And you still couldn’t see it You read me You received me I was breaking completely I sent you my heart And you still didn’t see me Still chose not to see me Still chose not to see me Still chose not to see me Outro I almost said I need you But I deleted the feeling Maybe silence hurts less Than asking and pleading But the worst part ain’t silence It’s knowing you received me I gave you every broken piece And you still chose not to see me