[spoken] I don’t really wanna talk about it... but fuck it... let’s go there What if? — yeah... what if? Alright... come closer for this one... [Verse 1] What if I never saw your name burnin’ through my screen? Still out here movin’ like a ghost nobody’s ever seen Smoke in the bedroom, red lights on the wall Another reckless night prayin’ I don’t feel at all Back then I was drownin’ in strangers and sin Lips on my neck while the darkness settled in Didn’t believe in love, just temporary highs Bodies in my sheets and deception in my eyes Every weekend another room, another city blur Another empty conversation I’d forget by morning, sure Heart cold as black leather soaked in summer rain Laughin’ like I loved the chaos while I slowly went insane Then you walked in with that dangerous calm Soft touch, sharp nails, perfume and cigarettes on your arms Looked at me like you could see beneath the skin Like you already knew the war I was livin’ in You didn’t save me... You made me wanna stay Made destruction lose its grip Every time you said my name [Bridge] Late nights tangled up in shadows and sheets Your silhouette movin’ slow against me in the heat City lights drippin’ through the cracks in the blinds Two damaged souls gettin’ addicted to the high [Pre-Hook] And maybe you don’t know How close I was to gone How many nights I stared at the ceiling Certain I wouldn’t last that long [Hook] What if you never loved me? What if you let me fade? Would I still be out here drownin’ in the mess I made? What if your touch never found me in the dark I was livin’? Would there be a soul left worth forgivin’? ’Cause truth is, baby Without you I disappear No home, no future, no reason to be here You turned a lost man holy With just your fingertips and charm Now every “what if” ends With me tangled in your arms [Verse 2] I remember cold roads, 3 AM, nowhere-bound Windows cracked, devil thoughts circlin’ around Didn’t care about tomorrow, barely cared to breathe Every night another battle with the demons underneath Everybody around me self-destructin’ slow Fake smiles, bad habits, nowhere left to go The world kept takin’ pieces till there wasn’t much left Just a pulse in my chest and expensive regrets Then you changed the atmosphere soon as you arrived Black dress, tired eyes, fire underneath your vibe No promises, no fairytale lines Just your body next to mine sayin’, “Baby... survive.” And somehow that was enough To pull me back again Now your fingerprints live everywhere Across my skin and in my head [Bridge] Moonlight spillin’ over whiskey on the floor Your hips movin’ slow while we forget what hurts before Every scar inside me started loosin’ its control The night you pressed your heartbeat against my soul [Pre-Hook] So if I drift sometimes Or disappear inside my mind Just remember you’re the only thing That ever pulled me back alive [Hook] What if you never loved me? What if you let me fade? Would I still be out here drownin’ in the mess I made? What if your touch never found me in the dark I was livin’? Would there be a soul left worth forgivin’? ’Cause truth is, baby Without you I disappear No home, no future, no reason to be here You turned a lost man holy With just your fingertips and charm Now every “what if” ends With me tangled in your arms [Outro] [spoken over soft ambient room noise] Sometimes I think about it... How close I came to becoming Just another bad memory somebody drinks to forget Then you crawl close to me... and suddenly the dark don’t feel so hungry anymore You didn’t rescue me Nah... You seduced me back to life. So... what if? Fuck it... I don’t wanna know anymore.
