### 🎃 "October Doesn't Feel Like Home Anymore" An extremely sad, nostalgic Halloween heartbreak ballad. Soft, haunting verses that slowly turn into enormous, emotional choruses. The sadness should feel like missing a whole lifetime that you thought you still had ahead of you. VERSE 1 — FRAGILE, SOFT VOCALS It's my favorite season again, The leaves are dying, the nights are getting cold. And I don't know why it hurts so much, To watch October come without someone to hold. I walked the streets we used to wander, Past the houses dressed in orange lights. I saw the pumpkins on the doorsteps, And remembered how we laughed those nights. We'd smash the pumpkins, run around, Make stupid memories all over town. And I'd never think that one day I'd be walking all these streets alone. I wish I'd known how much I'd miss it, I wish I'd held those moments longer. I thought we'd have another October, I thought we'd have so many more. CHORUS 1 — SAD, CATCHY, LONGING AND IT'S HALLOWEEN AGAIN WITHOUT YOUUUU, AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE IT FEEL LIKE IT USED TO. THE PUMPKINS ARE GLOWING, THE AUTUMN WINDS BLOW, BUT I'M MISSING SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW. I REMEMBER EVERYTHING, GOD, I REMEMBER IT ALL, YOUR LAUGHTER IN THE KITCHEN, YOUR SHOES IN THE HALL. AND I'D GIVE UP EVERY HALLOWEEN THAT'S LEFT TO ME, JUST TO HAVE ONE MORE NIGHT LIKE WE USED TO BE. VERSE 2 — MORE PERSONAL, MORE PAINFUL Your clothes are gone from off my bedroom floor, But sometimes I still look towards the door. Like you'll come walking in and ask me how I've been, Like we haven't lost the little world we lived in. I remember pumpkin spice in the air, And the smell of your perfume still lingering everywhere. I remember that show we never got to finish, All those little promises that somehow got diminished. We had a whole October left to live, So many little memories we still could give. But now the decorations come and go, And I'm just another person watching autumn turn to snow. And I hate that I remember every little detail, The nights we spent together, the stories that we'd tell. Because you probably don't think about it like I do, But every October brings me back to you. CHORUS 2 — BIGGER, CRACKING VOCALS OH, IT'S HALLOWEEN AGAIN WITHOUT YOUUUU! AND EVERY LITTLE THING REMINDS ME OF WHAT WE USED TO DO! I SEE THE SAME OLD STREETS, THE SAME OLD LIGHTS, BUT THERE'S NOBODY TO SHARE THESE OCTOBER NIGHTS! AND I KNOW I FUCKED UP, I KNOW I PLAYED A PART, BUT I NEVER THOUGHT I'D LOSE YOU AND THIS PIECE OF MY HEART. NOW EVERY LITTLE PUMPKIN, EVERY GHOST I SEE, IS ANOTHER LITTLE REMINDER OF WHAT YOU USED TO MEAN TO ME. VERSE 3 — VERY QUIET, DEVASTATING Do you remember the nights we stayed out late? The stupid little jokes, the things we'd celebrate? Do you remember how the cold would turn your cheeks red? And how we'd talk about everything inside our heads? I wonder if October makes you think of me, Or if you've found new places and new memories. Do you still love Halloween the way you did back then? Do you ever wish that we could do it all again? I don't want the candy, I don't want the lights, I don't want another crowded Halloween night. I just miss the person who made it feel like home, I miss having someone who made me feel less alone. And maybe that's the saddest part of all, The seasons never stop, the leaves still fall. The world keeps celebrating like nothing ever changed, But October has never felt the same. FINAL CHORUS — EXPLOSIVE, HEARTBREAKING, CINEMATIC IT'S HALLOWEEN AGAIN WITHOUT YOUUUU! MY FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR, BUT IT'S NOTHING LIKE IT USED TO! I'M WALKING PAST THE HOUSES WHERE WE USED TO GO, AND I'M TRYING NOT TO CRY WHEN THE AUTUMN WIND BLOWS! I REMEMBER YOUR CLOTHES, I REMEMBER YOUR FACE, I REMEMBER HOW WE'D LAUGH IN THAT OLD FAMILIAR PLACE! I REMEMBER THAT SHOW WE NEVER GOT TO END, AND ALL THE LITTLE THINGS I THOUGHT WE'D DO AGAIN! OH, I FUCKED UP, AND I WISH I COULD REWIND, I WISH I COULD GO BACK AND GIVE US A LITTLE MORE TIME! BECAUSE THE PUMPKINS ARE GLOWING, AND THE LEAVES ARE FALLING DOWN, BUT THE PERSON I LOVED ISN'T ANYWHERE AROUND! IT'S MY FAVORITE SEASON, BUT I'M DOING IT ALONEEEE! AND ALL THESE LITTLE HALLOWEEN STREETS DON'T FEEL LIKE HOME! I THOUGHT WE HAD FOREVER, I THOUGHT WE HAD MORE TIME, NOW I'M JUST ANOTHER OCTOBER WITH YOUR MEMORY AND MINE. OUTRO — ALMOST WHISPERED Happy Halloween, I guess... I hope you're having fun. I saw our old street tonight. I just wish you were there.
