Honest question: If you've been successfully performing "Competence” for years/decades even, does at some point the performance...become competence? Asking for a friend... ------------------ [INTRO] Sometimes I lie awake at night... I wonder if I'm here by mistake. Watching you, I feel so far behind: But I've learned to play the game... (you know..... ...the one where I pretend.) ---- [VERSE 1] How much longer can this go on? Then everyone's gonna find out: I can't keep up with who , You're assuming I am... and why you all believe it. I'm always looking back over my shoulder wondering, wincing When will they find out, That I'm just performing .... "Competence"... ---- [PRE-CHORUS ] No... I don't have an answer. And there was never a plan: I'll wing it like I always have... Oh my god, is this real? this is not My beautiful life, it's only a matter of time... Can I please get off this ride? ---- [CHORUS] Because: What if I'm not. What if I'm not.. What if I'm not who they think I am? What if I'm not. What if I'm not.. What if I'm not who I think I am? ---- [VERSE 2] It's hard to pretend when you wanna be them And not just someone they made If I get a chance to choose for myself again I'm just gonna walk away Maybe that's a lie... 'Cause I know myself Yeah I know myself ---- [PRE-CHORUS ] No... I don't have an answer. And there was never a plan: I'll wing it like I always have... Oh my god, is this real? this is not My beautiful life, it's only a matter of time. Can I please get off this ride? ---- [CHORUS] Because: What if I'm not. What if I'm not.. What if I'm not who they think I am? What if I'm not. What if I'm not.. What if I'm not who I think I am? ---- [BRIDGE ] Every second, second-guessing everything I don't wanna be your perfect version of me And Every second, second-guessing everything I'm so exhausted pretending to be me ---- [FINAL CHORUS ] Because: What if I'm not. What if I'm not.. What if I'm not who they think I am?! What if I'm not. What if I'm not.. What if I'm not who I think I am?! ---- [OUTRO ] What if they see my hands shake? What if they hear my heart race? All my life, It's been like: I imagine them saying, (" You...are just a phony...") (And I'd feel like screamin'...) "...FINALLY!!!" but maybe I'm lying again... (or maybe I'm lying.) ====================== © 2026 Metal Media ▣
