<verse> Three years long, the sky stayed gray, Morning comes but feels the same. Every breath tastes like yesterday, Every mirror says my name. I used to laugh without a cost, Used to bend and never break. Somewhere in the storm I lost The smile I didn’t know they’d take. <pre-chorus> They say the pain won’t last forever — Who said that? Who decides? Because it feels like endless weather Living underneath my skin tonight. <chorus> I feel like I’m drowning in the mud, Can’t see the sky, can’t feel the blood. Every step just pulls me down, No solid ground, no solid ground. Sometimes I just want to disappear, Not die — just vanish from here. Forget the weight, forget the fight, Turn off the noise inside my mind. <verse> Who said nothing lasts forever? Then why does this still stay? Why does hope feel paper-thin And courage slip away? Last night I looked into the dark And saw a stranger in my face. Where’s my humor? Where’s my spark? Who stole my saving grace? <pre-chorus> Resilience used to live in me, Now it barely breathes. I’m tired of being strong for free While something inside me leaves. <chorus> I feel like I’m drowning in the mud, Every thought is thick as blood. Can’t breathe deep, can’t cry loud, Just sinking slow beneath the crowd. Sometimes I want to lose my mind, Run so far I leave it behind. Not just forget — but erase the sound Of this constant breaking down. <bridge> But if pain stays forever… Why am I still here? If nothing changes ever… Why do I still fear That maybe somewhere in the gray A piece of me survived? Buried deep beneath the clay — Still somehow alive? Final Chorus (fragile, not triumphant — just real) I’m still drowning in the mud, But my heart still pumps its blood. Even buried, even numb, Something in me won’t succumb. I want my smile back someday — Not the fake one I display. Just a quiet, steady light… Maybe not tonight.
