Verse 1 I wanna sweep your perfect table clean, send every little ivory square across the room, let the pieces hit the hardwood like the thoughts I never get to choose. You’d finally hear the kind of noise I’ve been swallowing my whole damn life, maybe then you’d stop calling me difficult when I’m just trying to survive. Pre-Chorus I didn’t build this nervous system, I didn’t ask it to catch fire. Some wounds were there before I had the words to call them mine. Verse 2 You protect your precious little things better than you ever protected my heart. You notice every scratch on the furniture, but never notice when I fall apart. Then you tell me, control yourself, like trauma has an off-and-on switch, like I can straighten every wire just because it makes you uncomfortable to witness it. Pre-Chorus I was born with a different rhythm, then life kept pounding on the drum. So forgive me if my heartbeat doesn’t march like everyone’s. Chorus I want it to sound like me inside— crashing, cracking, nowhere to hide. Not because I want to watch you bleed, I just want you to finally feel me. One minute with the volume high, one minute living behind my eyes. Maybe you’d understand why I’m tired if it sounded like me inside. Bridge I don’t need you to fix me. I don’t need another cure. I needed you to care enough to ask what I was hurting for. Every tile upon the floor is a sentence I couldn’t say— all the feelings you stepped over because yours got in the way. Final Chorus Let it sound like me inside— every fracture amplified. I don’t want revenge, I want recognition, I want compassion without permission. One minute with the volume high, one minute living behind my eyes. Then maybe when I say, I’m trying, you’ll believe me this time. Outro So leave the pieces where they lie. Look at the mess you couldn’t ignore. That’s what it feels like inside my mind when you tell me I’m too much once more.
