(Verse 1) I sit in front of the screen, the room is silent, and everything I never say, I type into the search bar. Nobody knows that with trembling fingers I'm searching for answers no human being should ever read. How much pain can a body take? How many nights without sleep until you don't come back? I delete voice messages I never sent. I erase the traces — but my heart stays full. (Pre-Chorus) I smile when someone asks if everything is okay. I say, “Yeah, of course.” And my Google history screams the opposite. (Chorus) Nobody is allowed to see what I secretly search for at three in the morning. Nobody is allowed to know which questions I ask so I don't wake up anymore. Delete the history. Delete the truth. Delete me. (Verse 2) I don't drink to celebrate, I drink to forget, and sometimes, to disappear. The glass isn't pleasure, it's a negotiation with an ending I'm no longer afraid of. Nobody notices that my laughter feels heavy, like a soaking-wet coat. I wear it every day so nobody can see how cold I really am. (Pre-Chorus 2) Everyone thinks I'm functioning. But nobody understands that functioning can also be dying — just slower. (Chorus) Nobody is allowed to see what I secretly search for at three in the morning. Nobody is allowed to know which questions I ask so I don't wake up anymore. Delete the history. Delete the truth. Delete me. (Bridge) I don't want to die. I just want the pain to stop someday. But I don't know anymore how to live without running away. Chorus Nobody is allowed to see that I'm already standing at the edge. Nobody is allowed to know that I'm searching for answers to questions nobody should ever ask. Delete the history before someone realizes that it was me who couldn't go on anymore. Delete the history. But the hole inside me is still there.
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