[Verse 1] I was reborn into the light Soaked in baptism, shaped by right My truth was ready just for you Before you dared to ask what's true [Verse 2] Forty years an inner man With rules as walls, a strict command Jesus was my guiding chart A soul-catcher with a burning heart [Chorus] But I began to question things Not to run, not break my wings All that love still had a line “Amen” felt like a lens in time That grew more cloudy from within And I could no longer win [Verse 3] No drama, no fire and brimstone I left—left nothing of my own Called it emptiness with grace Atheism, but face to face [Verse 4] Later on, it turned to “I don’t know” No God above with words to show But sometimes whispers made of light Speak to me from deep inside [Chorus] 'Cause I began to think again Not to hate, not to descend I miss the psalms, but not the shame I miss the people, not the blame And still I search in silent space For something left, a trace, a grace [Bridge] Was I ever really in? Did I ever truly leave? Maybe faith’s not just a place But motion, rhythm, time, and grace And God’s no gatekeeper or throne But the wind that pulls me on [Final Chorus] And I don’t need to know it all Just let me float, not rise, not fall Between the love and what I miss Between what once was And what no longer is But still exists [Outro] Between the love and what I miss Between what once was And what no longer is But still exists
