Fighting My Way Back To Normalcy | Christian Payne x Avescrion

[Verse] This headache feels like a weight on my chest Same routine, never any rest I move through hours pre-approved Body's been already broken and already used Jaw locked tight from the endless grind Every thought laid in long white lines I wear the face that keeps things clean But nothing here feels lived-in [Pre-Chorus] Pressure builds till my spine gives way Every minute feels pre-decided I keep telling myself "just wait" But waiting's how I got divided [Chorus] I'm fighting my way back to normalcy Back from the loop that pulls me down Everyday feels like war on me But I'm done letting it wear me out I'm fighting my way back to normalcy Hoping that the world can set me free Clawing out of the same old skin I won't die in what's safe to live in [Post-Chorus] I finally want to put me first Even if it makes things worse If I lose the life I knew At least what’s left of me is true [Verse 2] Tried to tell myself it'd pass Tried to make it through the night Every promise I made myself Fell apart when I said I was fine I memorized the pattern quick Kept my head down, dealt with it But it's more than I can fight And I'm sick of trading self for time [Pre-Chorus] Breath gets short when the walls close tight Every cycle pulls me deeper If I don't strike back right now I won't recognize the mirror [Chorus] I'm fighting my way back to normalcy Back from the loop that pulls me down Everyday feels like war on me But I'm done letting it wear me out I'm fighting my way back to normalcy One step closer to breaking through This time I’m not obeying you I won't fade into what I'm "supposed" to do [Post-Chorus] I finally want to put me first Not what's easy, what I'm worth If that means I lose my place I'll learn to live with my own face [Bridge] I don't need perfect I just need real I don't need easy I need to feel [Breakdown] I choose the pain I choose to feel I'm still alive I'm still here I'm still alive I'm still here I'm still here ( I'm still here ) [Chorus] I'm fighting my way back to normalcy Breaking out of who I've been Learning how to breathe again Now I’m letting air back in I'm fighting my way back to normalcy No more running half asleep I can feel the weight release I'd rather bleed than feel erased [Post-Chorus] I finally want to put me first I don't know what that is worth But I can't keep living small Just to say I lived at all [Outro] Still alive Still here Even broken I am here