my mind got a mind of its own and it’s losing the argument going in circles then fighting over what started it part of me watching the other me watching the part of me wondering which one of us actually started this memory buffering, suddenly nothing is permanent thought that I had it then lost it mid-sentence deliberately maybe accidentally, honestly hard to determine when half of my recollection is filling the gaps inaccurately wait what was the point? see, that’s exactly the point attention deficient but overly conscious of everything noticing noticing, noticing that I’m noticing thinking about thinking until every thought gets examined then overexamined till I’m picking apart every bit of significance I can remember a feeling but not what produced it remember the answer but somehow forget what the truth is know that I knew it then lose it then suddenly prove it then doubt the conclusion the second my brain produces it that’s ridiculous I got internal narration debating the internal narration one of ’em narrating the fact there’s a narration another one questioning why there’s a conversation then somebody somewhere starts changing the interpretation now I’m skipping through flashbacks out of chronological order mixing up yesterday, childhood, next week and this morning details get smaller while meaningless details get enormous why can I picture a ceiling from 2004 but forget what I walked in the room for? explain that nah don’t I’ll over-explain it hyper-associative with rapid connective behavior one thought becomes seven, then seven start generating twenty more branch off before i can process the logic and none of these fuckers remember the original topic [Pause] I’ll start with a sentence detour through a question interrupt the interruption forget the intention remember an unrelated thing from eleven years back then return like anyways.... and have no idea where the hell I was at phew maybe my brain isn’t broken maybe it’s simply overloaded every possibility multiplying moments every decision got unlimited versions competing for focus hold up there I go trying to explain it again It’s Danger simple solutions for removing pollutions i think we go Russian so yes im Rasputin you knew this you didn't i dont really care for any of this so dont you get scared if you need some help send out an S.O.S flare... now Stumbled after dawn wanna talk about conditions brains running different renditions like its making a mission to have my reality mixing world stop spinning dont wanna keep gripping memories that are slipping whys this panic keep sticking my mind feels like its splitting cant it just be forgiving its like my brain matters dripping was that convincing? probably need to be a little more giving... panic attacks like to control me as a whole terror that strikes with no way to console leaving me feeling voided and null like i needa enroll ina seminar meeting meant to heal my soul then the polarity switch to another pole keeping me from the final goal of being unburdened from a useless role context is key think their starting to see... A D HD means messing with concentration now staying on track like a consecration cant stay tuned in for observation act now you can find the combination two seconds later thinking bout relations how the spot on the wall needs investigation bout how i might be the best creation whys wars fought between multiple nations try and remove them all through emancipations but the situations dire got some limitations every implication every aspiration leave me no room for negotiations freeze from all these operations and not a single one gets done like the communication broke down then im manic from an imbalance of chemicals terror is striking bi polar starts rising the visions are blurry like their in a hurry scary then scurry to a hole that is buried with ashes of dead bodies burning i know this feeling the yearning reasoning is no longer turning whispers are talking of hurting better watch all my wording straight jackets colored pearly even if the nurse flirty whys this medication not working! oh yea i forgot my pill wwhoops my bad dont let it happen again... simple solutions for removing pollutions i think we go Russian so yes im Rasputin you knew this you didn't i was not there for any of this so dont you get scared if you need some help then find someone who cares...
