Petty Disgrace (Old)

[Verse 1] 震える手が太腿に這う 舌で愛を描く、甘い偽りの愛撫 汗と涙が交わる中、もっと深く刻んで 傷跡が増えるたび、体が愛に溶ける A trembling hand crawls across my thigh, Drawing love with my tongue—sweet, deceitful caresses. Sweat and tears mingle, carving deeper still, With every new scar, my body melts into love. [Pre-Chorus 1] 鏡に映る私は何？ 赤く腫れた肌、歯型が残る唇 壊れた笑顔、ただの飾り 愛なんていらない、痛みと快楽で満たされる What am I, staring back from the mirror? Swollen red skin, teeth marks on trembling lips. A broken smile, nothing but decoration— I don’t need love; pain and pleasure fill me up. [Chorus 1] ねえママ、見て、この腐った娘を 「完璧な娘」なんて、もう笑えないよね？ 皮膚を裂く爪の痕が私を飾る 君の望んだ“娘”は、ただの汚れた人形 抱きしめてみても冷たい手 感じないでしょ？私の苦しみなんて ねえママ、私がただの“物”だと知ってるよ 愛もなく、ただ壊れていく娘を見て Hey, Mama, look—at your rotting little girl. "Perfect daughter"? You can’t laugh at that now, can you? The marks of nails splitting skin decorate me, Your so-called “daughter” is nothing but a filthy doll. Even if you hold me, your hands are ice cold. Can’t you feel it? My suffering is nothing to you. Hey, Mama, I know—I’m just an object, aren’t I? No love, just watch as I keep breaking apart. [Verse 2] 知らない誰かの指が私の中を探る 名前も覚えてない、ただの獲物 壊れた体が冷たく笑う 愛なんて嘘、ただ傷が残る Fingers of strangers crawl inside me, searching, I don’t remember their names; I’m just prey. A broken body laughs so coldly— Love is a lie, only scars remain. [Pre-Chorus 2] 触れるたび、身体が崩れていく 傷が愛を代わりに埋めていく 望んでいない、でも快楽は逃げない この壊れた夜に沈み続けていく With every touch, my body falls to pieces, Scars fill the void where love was supposed to be. I don’t want this, but pleasure doesn’t run away— I sink further into this broken night. [Chorus 2] ねえパパ、誇れる？それとも嫌悪？ 堕ちた娘がここにいる、君が作った形 体を捧げるたびに、深く裂けて 君の“愛”が私を溶かしていく 冷たい手が私の首を掴むたび、息が途絶える 痛みの中で感じる、愛の代わり ねえパパ、ただの“失敗”だと思ってるよね？ じゃあ見て、私がどう壊れていくかを Hey, Papa, are you proud? Or do you despise me? Here’s your fallen daughter, shaped by your hands. Every time I surrender this body, it tears apart deeper, Your “love” melts me into nothing. Cold hands wrap around my neck; my breath disappears, But in the pain, I feel it—a replacement for love. Hey, Papa, I know—I’m just a “failure,” aren’t I? Then watch how I destroy myself for you. [Bridge] 赤く染まる肌、血に濡れた証 壊れた体が唯一の快楽 叫んでも、誰も答えないでしょ？ 壊れるたびに、もっと求める私 Skin dyed red, a testament soaked in blood, A broken body is my only pleasure. Even if I scream, no one answers, do they? Every time I shatter, I crave it even more. [Pre-Chorus 3] 最期が近づく、冷たい唇が触れる 壊れた心が溶けていく罪の中 「もっと…もっと…」と囁く すべてを終わらせて、最期の夜に The end approaches—cold lips brush against mine, A broken heart dissolves into the weight of sin. “More… More…” a whisper in the dark, End it all—this final night. [Final Chorus] ねえみんな、見てよ、この腐った娘を 体が裂けて、赤く濡れていく 誰も救わない、ただの笑い者 この甘い夜に沈んで、何も残らない 友達？ただの幻、求めるふりをするだけ 手が首に絡まり、息を奪うたび 愛も憎しみも、甘く混ざり合う 最期の夜に堕ちていく、全てが消える Hey, everyone, look—at this rotting girl. My body tears apart, soaked red, piece by piece. No one saves me; I’m just a joke to them. Sinking into this sweet night, leaving nothing behind. Friends? Just illusions—pretending they care. Hands wrap around my neck, stealing every breath, Love and hate, sweetly tangled together, Falling into this final night, where everything disappears. [Post-Chorus] 壊れた体、赤く染まる罰 偽りの愛に溺れ、罪に囚われていく 叫んでも、誰も助けてくれない 首に巻きつく手が、最後の囁きを奪う A broken body, stained crimson in punishment, Drowning in fake love, trapped in sin. Even if I scream, no one will save me. Hands around my neck steal the last whisper away. [Outro] 「もっと…もっと壊して…」 息が途切れ、体が動かない 赤い痕が私を染めて、最後に さようなら、私なんてもう存在しない “More… Break me more…” Breath fades, my body won’t move. Red marks stain me, and at last— Goodbye. I don’t exist anymore.