[INTRO – SPOKEN | MALE | LOW, REFLECTIVE] Life, man — the moments that count. Add it up slow. What’s sitting in your account? [VERSE 1 – MALE | RAW, PROVOCATIVE] College radio, voice in your head, After-hours DJ saying things better left unsaid. Managed a strip club, Cookie Way nights, Perfume, neon, cash, and bad advice. Luscious Lindsay, yeah she knew the game, Eyes that dare you, smile that says your name. Teased me reckless, front-row sin, Pulled me close just to pull my chips all in Asked for a ride, I didn’t stall, Didn’t ask where — I was in for it all. Could’ve said no, could’ve played it safe, But temptation talks in a real soft way. Head was gone, yeah I was in all ready to play Back to her hotel, that’s where we went, Only time in my life I spent Less than ten minutes — still remember the scent. I came and went. Next time she rolled through, Even though I wanted to Didnt get a chance to screw She had a guy she was now faithful to But that first night echoes rang through A truth overdue impossible to ignore, That night made it clear what door I must close What I had to do. [CHORUS – MALE | MELODIC, RESTRAINED] If I change one step, I could lose it all One wrong edit, domino fall Every scar wrote who I am today The past lets me live and play this way [VERSE 2 – MALE | FLIRTY, UNCOMFORTABLY HONEST] Seven years deep, I buy her a ring, Birthday gift — didn’t think it was a thing. To me just shiny, nice on her hand, Didn’t read the contract I didn’t plan. She saw futures, I saw jewelry, Same circle, two different movies. Last year together, barely aligned, Still stayed faithful — strip club, bodies, neon signs. She had a master, told me straight, But bristled anytime another girl caught my gaze. Funny how rules bend depending who’s hurt, How jealousy wears honesty like a shirt. That pressure sat heavy, tight on my chest, Lindsay cracked it — exposed the rest. Didn’t fall in love, didn’t chase the thrill, Just realized I was standing still. So right before Christmas, I took the quiet way, Wrote a letter — not proud, but I got away. Didn’t face her clean, didn’t play it brave, But I ended the role I couldn’t keep playing. [CHORUS – MALE | MELODIC, energetic] If I change one step, I could lose it all One wrong edit, domino fall Every scar wrote who I am today The past lets me live and play this way [VERSE 3 – MALE | FLIRTY, UNEASY] Met her online, no face, just flow, Late-night talks got addictive though. When we met up, sparks weren’t loud, But her mind stayed naked, no filter, no sound First kiss froze me — she whispered low, "That Kiss was my first" and I was jiust about to go I let that comment cement a chunk of my life. If only I knew what it Meant then I know I would have left But I didnt so this is how it went Thought I had the expeeience edge thought I had control, Didn’t have the knowledge Going in blind for tbis roll Worldview explanded, learned about whores Black and Blue Ball — opened doors. [VERSE 4 – MALE CONFIDENT SLY] Virgin she told me, wasnt till future experience i realized she lied She controled . Changed my culture opened my eyes wide. That cant be denied She was wild, a puzzle I couldn’t read, Taught me madness, now its more of a need Fourteen years later, I discovered virgins bleed Charlie played angel — my well-meaning friend. Sheltered girl, twenty, eager to live, Thought I’d be gentle, thought I’d give. She sparked the smoke, I followed the lead, She was a virgin and I just greened As we started a mistep indeed Two fingers wrong hole She began to question the goal But as I regained control Fingers no longer in asshole I was able to defeat the weed. I slowed it down, completed the deed First times are messy, never clean, But we finished stronger than we began the scene. [VERSE 5 – MALE | CHILDHOOD NEAR-MISS / FATE] Another time when I was seven, White van rolled by me and Kevin. “Got ice cream,” window cracked, real calm, I stepped once — felt his arm. He yanked me back, screamed my name, I was pissed, thought he ruined the game. Didn’t know how close I’d been, Didn’t see the edge I leaned in. If I’d been alone that day, If I’d walked the other way, Different road, different breath, Different me — maybe nothing left. That’s why I stand the way I stand, Scarred, alive, still in command. Call it luck or twisted fate, One small pull sealed my shape. [FINAL CHORUS – MALE | RESOLVED, OPEN] If I change one step, I could lose it all One wrong edit, domino fall Every scar wrote who I am today The past lets me live and play this way OUTRO – SPOKEN | MALE No rewinds. No edits. Just me.
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