[Intro] +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ (I am screaming out!) [Verse 1] Woke up, checked the chat, saw the squad still alive Everybody droppin heat, man the dream survived But I'm still in my head too much, I can’t lie Half the time I’m wishin someone else could drive Feelin like I’m facin down the ghost I create Pressure got me pacing, got the pen like a blade Cut deep when I speak, feel like I am goin insane Remember when I said I’d never change lanes? Now I’m bargainin with burnout just to stay the same Watchin homies blossom while I rot inside Like I made a garden just to get left behind Still I love it when they win, that’s the paradox I feel proud and hollow when the beatbox knocks You know the other day something happened kinda funny I'd been on that grind makin money Makin songs trying to create a group Felt like I had the world under my boot When I realized Im walkin in the same ol ways Treading carefully in these wicked days I found a old journal when I was a teenager Reading my words made me feel like a mean stranger To myself and the world Seemed obsessed over a few girls Didnt talk about my struggle with faith Or the rage of the wraith I've been fightin since I was a child It was wild To look back Lifes a funny thing then it fades to black Got me thinkin about whats goin on I've told you all about a few dubs But I am still weak and not strong Feel like a heathen without his clubs I've banded some people together I want this shit to last forever It seems to be workin like it should They doin features that I never could My ego says I need to be a leader But I cant lead when I am barely a believer And the twisted fact half of em are better than I could ever be Then I get nervous like their shadow is all I will ever see For some reason I feel like im rising but I got darker Like I am corrupting my partners I just want people to do well Yet I feel like I am draggin em to hell Barrel dipped out and needed to touch some grass Dont blame him but how much time will pass Till Love gets to anti social Or Soul leak realizes I am to woeful One life you doin what I wanted to do better than I am You old an wise fam Vibin with 88 waves How I tell all these guys I dont know the way How I tell em most days I'd rather be dead Tryin to catch up with burn the veil and red an you know hey Sashay, treven, millz, and zero Yall all like my heroes This aint a good bye, heck no But between Elucid and Echo I am not sure how to stand This is all going according to plan And maybe thats why I am scared Of what this looks like tomorrow Greatful for you all and band of sorrow This is shit I prolly shouldnt share But a have this nightmare That Gusta Might look at me like I am a busta Just a phony Star could you shine light in all this dark in my soul Guys im goin crazy an maybe Im just lonely This aint a good bye just a vent session for show Signing off, Persuasive Pro
