[Theme: The stranger at her left elbow is uncomplicatedly happy at the same barrier, hands over a spare hair tie without being asked, and is the exact measure of how greedy the wanting is] [SONG FORM: Rage state-machine, five hard levels — 6/6/6-bar verses on a sibilant head-hammer broken exactly once, two-line byte-identical chorus x4, a chant tag cut to one line after the second chorus, one-line mix inversion in which the second voice takes the front] [Intro - EMO:Affection - Lead chanted - full level from bar one] Shoulder in my back arrives and stays. Steel goes cold straight through a thin shirt. She turns up at my left holding a coat. Says sorry for something she has not done. Sss— breath through the teeth, and she laughs. Straight away she is having a good time. Best thing at this rail, and a stranger. Something enormous is what I came for. Say it once: she is not why I'm restless. [Verse 1 - EMO:Admiration - Lead warm, 6 bars - triangle enters with her] Shoes wrong for standing, and she knows it. Shifts her weight, laughs, shifts it back. Sings the support act's name at nobody. Shows a wristband like it is a passport. Sweat on her temple in the pre-show heat. Star on her cheek, and she's early on the beat. She is not performing this. That's the thing. Steady, ordinary, happy at the bar. Stack of hair coming out of its strap. Spare tie on her wrist, ready for that. Should be enough to be here like she is. Something in me keeps asking what else there is. [Chorus - EMO:Illicit Eagerness - Lead - two lines, byte-identical, sub ducked] She has both hands up and wants nothing more. Should be enough — and something in me wants more. [Chant Tag - EMO:Zealousness - Lead + strangers - four syllables] Should be enough. Should be enough. Should be enough. Should be enough. [Verse 2 - EMO:Contempt - Lead snarl, aimed at a clause and never at her, 6 bars] Speakers overhead have picked the whole night. Set list of somebody else's shortest songs. Shaped to land early. Shaped by a clause. Signed by nobody I can point at because— She doesn't care and she is not wrong. Shouts the wrong lyric all the way along. Shoves gently backward to give me room. Says the bruise on her hip will bloom. So here is the ugly part, said plain: Standing next to happy makes me hungry again. Sour little want with the best view here. Still not taking it back. Still here. [Chorus - EMO:Illicit Eagerness - Lead - two lines, byte-identical] She has both hands up and wants nothing more. Should be enough — and something in me wants more. [Chant Tag - EMO:Impatience - ONE LINE where it has been four; the verse starts over the top] Should be enough. [Bridge - EMO:Shame - Lead close - two-bit at full energy, ends mid-phrase] Shift in the room. Something about to start. Small thought lands where it always lands: Still want the night to pick me out. She doesn't need that. She's already here. Shh— swallow it. Say none of that. Shame arrives, sits down, doesn't leave. Sure of the want. Not sure it's clean. S— s— s— Two-bit collapse, level held. Steel under both arms and the two-bit takes it— [Hinge - EMO:Compassion - MIX INVERSION - the second voice takes lead for one line, then loses] [Wide, overhead, cut off] ...give it thirty seconds— [Second voice, shouted, off-mic, in front - one line only] Spare one on my wrist. Take it. [Wide, overhead, wins back] ...give it— [Verse 3 - EMO:Resolve - Lead, snarl and warmth alternating, 6 bars - fill a bar early] Strap goes. Hair goes up. Hands go back. Small kindness costing her nothing at all. Still wanting something enormous. Both true. She would think that was funny if I said it. So I don't. I shout the chorus instead. Sweat and steel and somebody's elbow in my head. Safe as a fire door. Signed off. Fine. Sick little hunger standing in a safe line. She has both hands up. Still holding nothing. Shape of the rail is printed on my arms. Something enormous is still not here. Still hungry, still glad, and still here. [Chorus - EMO:Resolve - Lead + gang shout - Hammond under] She has both hands up and wants nothing more. Should be enough — and something in me wants more. [Chant Tag - EMO:Zealousness - Full gang, wide, late] Should be enough. Should be enough. Should be enough. Should be enough. [Chorus - EMO:Resolve - Full gang - last statement] She has both hands up and wants nothing more. Should be enough — and something in me wants more. [Outro - EMO:Affection - Lead close, triangle alone at the end] Should be enough. Should be enough. She turns and shouts the name again. Sss— hh— steady, and the triangle rings. Should be enough. Strap holds now. Both arms back on steel. Should be enough. Should be enough.
