[Intro] [Verse 1] I gave my better years to fantasies with shiny rims Soft focus on a downfall, we was pretty, scared to swim You wanted opera, I was watchin' the audience Countin' exits in the rafters while you practiced violins You saw forever, I saw weather, brought a poncho to the kiss You brought scripture to a skeptic, I wore logic on my wrist You said jump and trust the landing, I said show me the risk You want poems and fireworks, I want proof and I want bricks I loved like I was funded by a nation with no debt Threw my future in a furnace just to warm somebody's breath Shared my secrets like a keynote, left my margin in the red Now my "once upon a time" is just a line item instead [Chorus] Heart-shaped coffin, lay my feelings in it often Poured the concrete over, let the silence do the talkin' Heart-shaped coffin, I'm the one that nailed it shut I ain't dyin' for devotion just to decorate a rut [Verse 2] They want balcony tragedies, last dance on the ledge Two martyrs in a bed, I got payrolls in my head You want Juliet devotion, I got boardroom paranoia You want steam up on the window, I'm just checkin' who employed ya Every hug a merger, every kiss another lawyer You see fireworks, I see paperwork and spoilage Checked in a fantasy hotel, room key under "Maybe" Champagne on the carpet, mascara in the mail Exit sign was laughin', it knew how this would fail I stood at the altar where the honesty should meet Watched "forever" get negotiated down to "we'll see" [Chorus] Heart-shaped coffin, lay my feelings in it often Poured the concrete over, let the silence do the talkin' Heart-shaped coffin, I'm the one that nailed it shut I ain't dyin' for devotion just to decorate a rut [Bridge] I fold my tenderness into a little paper boat Send it down the river of the things I can't promote Let the ink become a legend, let the legend turn to smoke If my heart survives in silence, that's the loudest way to go [Verse 3] I'd rather break your expectation than my spine for your applause Got nieces watchin' closely, seein' how I handle flaws Every compromise I make has gotta honor all my laws 'Cause my downfall ain't a movie, it's a neighborhood on pause You want midnight texts that say "Run, I'll bring the gas" I want credit scores and therapy and generational cash You want "if we can't be together, we'll vanish in a flash" I want "if we fall apart, we both survive the crash" You romanticize the wreckage, I recount the hidden fees You want car chases and crescendos, I want wills and extra ke-...... [silence] [Raplover verses] EY.... AYY.. They know the name, but not the nights, The smile I wear, the wars inside. YHEAH.. RAPLOVER.. [Verse 1] I gave my heart to people while mine needed repair, Played the strong one so long, forgot how to share. I'd say "I'm good" with a storm in my chest, Then go home to silence and fight with my head. I remember small moments you probably forgot, Now I scroll through old pictures, act like I don't care, I got dreams in my pocket, got fear in my bones, Make a room full of people laugh, then hurt when I'm home. [Chorus] Who's there for the one everybody leans on? I'm tired of saying "I'm fine" just to keep moving on, Tired of hiding the hurt till the feeling is gone. I don't need you to save me, just sit here and stay, I'm more than the mask, more than what you can see, I'm still learning to give some compassion to me. [Verse 2] I got flaws, got pride, got regrets I replay, Sometimes "leave me alone" means "please don't let go," I push people away, then feel lost when they go. I want my family proud when I finally arrive, But what if I win every dream and feel dead inside? What's a house full of gold if there's nobody home? I want cars, want the stage, want respect for the name, But success means nothing if I turn cold for fame. I still check on my people, even when I feel low, 'Cause I know what it costs when you suffer alone. I put pain in a rhyme, let the truth hit the page, Turn the tears into words, let them out of the cage. And if I sound too confident, don't mistake it for peace, Sometimes swagger's just the armor I wear in the street. I still hurt, but I'm learning to be real. [Bridge] If I could meet that boy, I'd sit by his side: "You don't have to be perfect to deserve love in life. You can cry, you can break, you can ask for a hand; Being human ain't weakness, it's part of being a man." I wish I'd heard those words when the nights felt long, [Final Chorus] Who's there for the one everybody leans on? I'm tired of saying "I'm fine" just to keep moving on, I'm still here, still breathing, still writing my song. I'll face my past without hiding my scars. Raplover's the name, but there's more underneath; A whole heart, still healing, still learning to breathe. [Outro] I spent years trying to be enough for everybody to see, Forgot the one person I neglected most was me. I ain't fully healed, but I'm done with the show. I wasn't always okay. I just never let it show.
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