Still Saving You a Seat

[INTRO] Fuck, I still remember that night Like it’s looping in my skull City lights didn’t flicker World didn’t stop Only mine did [VERSE 1] – Before everything broke We were raised by the blocks and broken promises Bare stress, no guidance, just confidence Laughing through pain like it didn’t exist Two idiots thinking life owed us shit You said, “Fam, don’t stress, we’re built for this” Standing in the rain, sharing one last spliff Dreams bigger than the flats we slept in Didn’t clock fate was already stepping Now I walk them same roads with my chest feeling hollow Same ends, same nights, but no tomorrow Your voice still rings when the bass hits low But every tune reminds me you ain’t coming home [VERSE 2] The moment Phone rang. I froze. Cos bad news always sound the same. Man said your name Then silence Then my heart just fucking caved Hospital smell, tears on your mum’s face Your brother screaming like he lost his faith I stood there useless, hands shaking Thinking, why the fuck am I still breathing? That’s when life turned cold That’s when hope got robbed That’s when I realised The world don’t give a fuck who you are [CHORUS] I lost you in a second Still feels unreal Every breath I take Feels like something I steal [Instrumental] (MC 1): Should’ve been me… fuck this… I scream your name in the drop But the bass don’t bring you back This ain’t sadness, this is grief This a heart attack on a track [VERSE 3] Mandem say “stay strong”, yeah suck your advice Strength don’t mean shit when you’re dead inside I still check my phone like you might reply Like this whole thing was just one sick lie Can’t sleep, fam, nightmares on replay Your last smile burned in my brain I drink too much just to feel less But it don’t numb guilt, it just makes it louder in my head I still save you a spot when I’m deep in the rave Then I break down alone when the lights fade Everyone moves on, that’s the maddest part I’m stuck on the day they tore my heart apart [VERSE 4 ] MC 1 (spoken): I tried praying But God stayed silent So don’t chat to me about plans MC 2 (gesungen): If love was enough, you’d still be here Instead I’m drowning in another year MC 1: I’m angry, fam At the world, at myself MC 2: I smile outside But I’m losing my mental health This ain’t poetic, this ain’t deep This is what happens when your soul can’t sleep [BRIDGE ] If heaven’s real, I hope you’re safe Cos down here everything feels fake I’d trade my future, every breath Just to hear you laugh again CHORUS (beide MCs – maximal emotional) I lost you in the noise, in the rain, in the pain Every beat reminds me I’ll never be the same If I make it out, I’ll drag this weight Carry your name till my fucking grave (MC 1) : You didn’t leave… You were taken [OUTRO] They say time heals That’s bullshit Time just teaches you How to live With someone missing