[Chorus] Tell me that you want me closer Crying on your goddamn shoulder Everything's so much colder Knowing that it's almost over Couldn't even last October Must've been a three-leaf clover Just another non-disclosure Couldn't ever love me sober [Verse1] I’m spiralin’, mind racin’, heart breakin’, can’t pace it, Every memory’s a blade and I’m the one that it’s chasin’, You replaced me so quick, now I’m facin’ erasin’, Every trace of your name but it’s stuck in my brainstem. Late nights, no sleep, just a loop of your voice, Every “I love you” echoin’, I ain’t got a choice, Try to drown it in noise but it only gets louder, Now I’m talkin’ to ghosts in the shape of your power. I gave everything, every breath, every second, Now I’m left with the wreckage of words you weaponized, You said “forever,” guess forever had an expiration, Now I’m countin’ down the days since my heart was severed, right? And I hate that I still want you, yeah, I said it, I do, Even after all the damage and the hell you put me through, I’d rewind every lie just to hear “I love you,” That’s the sick part of love, it’ll punish what’s true. Fast thoughts, can’t stop, like I’m chasin’ a shadow, Try to run but the pain got a grip on the throttle, Every tear like a drop in a bottomless bottle, Tryna numb it but it doubles, now I’m lost in the hollow. You moved on, I’m stuck, yeah, I’m frozen in time, Every photo’s a crime scene, every memory a rhyme, I’m recitin’ my trauma like it’s part of the design, Turnin’ heartbreak to art but it’s killin’ my mind. And I know I should hate you, cut you out, let you go, But the truth is I don’t even know me anymore, You took pieces I can’t get back, deep to the core Now I’m half of a person you don’t care for. [Chorus] Tell me that you want me closer Crying on your goddamn shoulder Everything's so much colder Knowing that it's almost over Couldn't even last October Must've been a three-leaf clover Just another non-disclosure Couldn't ever love me sober [Verse 2] Now I’m stuck on October like the month never ended, Every date in my phone got your name embedded, I pretend I don’t care but it’s all just a method To suppress every thought that I never intended. You said “closer,” I came, now I’m further than ever, Tried to hold it together but you severed the tether, Now I’m driftin’ alone through the stormiest weather, And I’m talkin’ to silence like it answers me better. Goddamn, every promise you made was a phase, Every “always” you said got erased in a day, Now I’m stuck in a loop tryna process the pain, But my brain keeps rewinding the look on your face. Was it fake? Was it real? Did you feel what I felt? Or was I just a story that you told to yourself? I was givin’ you me while you guarded your health, Now I’m left with a version of me I can’t help. Three-leaf clover, yeah, I guess that’s the luck, Almost had somethin’ real but it wasn’t enough, Non-disclosure emotions, you just bottled it up, Then you dipped when it mattered, now I’m callin’ your bluff. And the sober truth hurts more than anything said, You only loved me halfway, I was all in instead, Now I’m layin’ awake, every word in my head, Wish I hated you… but I just hate me instead. [Bridge] im kinda sick to my stomach was everything just for nothin wish you would tell me it wasnt i probably shudda been runnin from all the signs you were bluffin guess i was overly trustin [Chorus] Tell me that you want me closer Crying on your goddamn shoulder Everything's so much colder Knowing that it's almost over Couldn't even last October Must've been a three-leaf clover Just another non-disclosure Couldn't ever love me sober (Couldn't ever love me sober)
