[Verse 1] When I realized it, it was completely darkness and I could hardly see anything And somehow, there is hatred in me I don't want to hurt you [Pre-Chorus] This is not the real me Do you understand? I’m shaking at the edge of it still trying to stay soft [Chorus] This is not the real me This is not the real me Do you understand? Can I scoop you up? Can I scoop you up? Stay close to me now [Verse 2] I keep my hands open so they can’t become a storm I know the shape of my own ruin But when your name lands something in me breaks open and begs to be gentle [Pre-Chorus] This is not the real me Do you understand? I’m fighting through the black in me to reach you clean [Chorus] This is not the real me This is not the real me Do you understand? Can I scoop you up? Can I scoop you up? Stay close to me now [Bridge] If I go cold, pull me back If I go rough, say my name I want to choose the softer way I want to choose you again [Final Chorus] This is not the real me This is not the real me Do you understand? Can I scoop you up? Can I scoop you up? Let me hold you now This is not the real me This is not the real me I’m coming back to you
