alcohol, drugs and misery

I FEEL SO HOLLOW EVERY FUCKING DAY IN EVERY FUCKED UP WAY IM HOPING FOR SHIT TO GET BETTER WHILST WASTING AWAY AND BEING SO BITTER OOH THIS MONSTER IN MY HEAD IT ALWAYS WANTS MORE EVERY SINGLE DAY I FEEL WORSE THEN THE DAY BEFORE THERES ONLY ONE THING TO CURE THE HURT ALL I WANT EVERY DAY IS THE ALCOHOL DRUGS AND MISERY I FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT I GUESS ITS OKAY I NEED IT FUCK IT I NEED IT ANYWAY OOH THE VOICE INSIDE MY MIND IS LINGERING PAST SUICIDE WANTING TO CROSS THE LINE (OH I GUESS IT WOULD FEEL GOOD) I CAN NEVER TALK ABOUT MY FEELINGS I AM JUST MISUNDERSTOOD I SAY I FEEL LIKE SHIT THEY SAY GO OUT BUT IM NOT IN THE MOOD (I NEVER) (FUCKING AM) OOH THIS MONSTER IN MY HEAD IT ALWAYS WANTS MORE EVERY SINGLE DAY I FEEL WORSE THEN THE DAY BEFORE THERES ONLY ONE THING TO CURE THE HURT ALL I WANT EVERY DAY IS THE ALCOHOL DRUGS AND MISERY I FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT I GUESS ITS OKAY I NEED IT FUCK IT I NEED IT ANYWAY OOH OOH CAN YOU HEAR ME THROUGH THE SOUND OF THE PAIN IT TAKES OVER MY HEART AND MY BRAIN SENDING SIGNALS TO PULL THE PIN SAY FUCK IT AND THROW MYSELF IN THE DRAIN OOOH IF ONLY THE VOICES WOULD END ALL THE PAIN IF ONLY MY FEELINGS COULD SUPRESS MY RAGE ALL I WANT EVERY DAY IS THE ALCOHOL DRUGS AND MISERY I FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT I GUESS ITS OKAY I NEED IT FUCK IT I NEED IT ANYWAY ALL I WANT EVERY DAY IS THE ALCOHOL DRUGS AND MISERY I FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT I GUESS ITS OKAY I NEED IT FUCK IT I NEED IT ANYWAY OOH