[Intro] You’re gonna wake up angry You’re gonna turn away You’ll tell me you still hate me And I’ll know what to say So I’ll sit here till you open Those eyes and prove them wrong They keep talking like you’re leaving But you’ve never been gone this long [Verse 1] They’ll fix whatever’s broken That’s what grown-ups always do You’ll come home, slam your bedroom door And I’ll make it up to you I’ll throw away that stupid mask I swear I’ll let you be You can keep your little yellow bear You don’t have to forgive me Not yet Just wake up first Then hate me if you need I can live with you not speaking Just please keep breathing [Pre-Chorus] Why won’t anybody answer When I ask when you’re coming home? Why does every whispered sentence End the moment I get close? [Chorus] I only wanted you frightened Just enough to make you cry Just enough so we could laugh about it When another day went by I thought fear was something little Something gone when morning came I never stopped to wonder Why you trembled at their names I never thought I’d miss you I thought we had years to fight I thought I’d get to tell you someday That I knew I wasn’t right [Verse 2] You used to call them your friends Lined up close against your chest Little faces made of fabric Keeping watch while you could rest When did they become your monsters? What did you see that I ignored? How many times did you try to tell me While I laughed outside your door? I knew exactly how to scare you Knew the mask that made you run And every tear just made me louder Because I thought that made it fun God, I never even asked you What you thought was chasing you I just saw my frightened brother And decided fear was funny too [Pre-Chorus 2] You were trying to tell somebody There was something you could see And instead of standing beside you I became what made you flee [Chorus 2] I only wanted you frightened I never wanted you hurt But wanting doesn’t change the hands That lifted you from the earth I can say I didn’t mean it Till there’s nothing left to say But I was there, I helped them carry you And I put your fear on display I thought we’d grow out of this someday You’d laugh at who we used to be Now every future I imagined Ends with you still blaming me And I’d take that I swear I’d take that If you were here to blame me [Verse 3] There should’ve been another birthday Another stupid fight upstairs Another year of slammed doors Another morning finding you there Maybe someday I’d have told you I was sorry for those nights Maybe someday you’d have believed me Maybe someday we’d be alright I thought time was something endless Something children always had I didn’t know one joke could steal it I didn’t know a laugh could turn that bad [Bridge] We carried you between us You were kicking, screaming, small I remember all of us laughing Like it meant nothing at all I remember that yellow face I remember lifting you high I remember saying one more second Just one more scare before goodbye Then I saw those jaws come down I heard the snap And every laugh died with it Your body went still in our hands My friends stopped moving I couldn’t breathe I couldn’t speak I just stared at what I’d done One second you were crying And the next I would’ve given anything Just to hear you cry again [Final Chorus] It was supposed to be funny... It was supposed to be harmless But then that jaw snapped shut And suddenly it wasn’t funny anymore There was no joke left to finish No punchline anyone could say Just my little brother falling And a childhood torn away I was supposed to scare you Not become the thing you feared I was supposed to laugh and leave you Then grow older with you here Now I’d give up every tomorrow For one yesterday before Before I learned how fast a moment Can become forevermore It was supposed to be funny... God, I swear that’s all it was But you were scared And I was laughing Until suddenly I wasn’t Anymore [Outro] You’re not gonna wake up angry You’re not gonna turn away There’s no door for you to slam now No tomorrow where I’ll say That I’m sorry That I believe you That whatever you had seen You deserved someone beside you And that should’ve been me So keep your little yellow bear If somewhere you still can I hope you knew I loved you Even when I wasn’t acting like your brother I’m sorry.
