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Bedroom light screen all white Full name birthdate typed it twice to get it right Too many results I scroll past the noise Hold command hit find let the page make the choice Highlight jumps just another line Same spelling same date no room to deny I read it once then again then again Cases stacked underneath where his name begins I stand up sit down pacing the wood floor Skip the same small place that creaks by the door Golden light flooding in through the glass It doesnt change anything in what I see Felony Child Just another name on the list this time I had it planned like it already worked Said it out loud like that made it certain Now its text on a page I cant undo And every line still resolves to you I check it again I check it again Like I missed a step Like theres some version I havent read yet But it stays where it is it stays as him Just another name on the list I found You said friends every time I got close Left space on the couch like a rule we both know I bought a bigger one got rid of the old Thought space was the problem I needed to solve You stayed at the edge like before Distance measured out across the floor Pulled my hand faster through aisles and doors Changed direction quick when the crowd got more Sudden speed walking hand at the back of my neck Directing me forward without a word I took it as care I took it as you Keeping me safe in a way I never knew Karaoke lights bodies on screen I didnt change anything First time you heard me same song same key I watched for a signal youd look at me You didnt say anything after I sang Just paid the tab like it didnt land We walked out quiet no shift in the air Like nothing had happened in front of you there Your voice went low when the room went small Said my name like it wasnt mine at all I learned to go quiet to follow the cue Smaller was safer when I was with you Clothes hung loose where they used to fit I stopped asking questions I needed less I watched myself change And didnt stop it And called it adjustment so I could stay I said on the phone to my best friend If you knew what was happening here Kept it level so hed get it He let it pass like it wasnt for him So I went quiet again That night I drank more than I could hold Tried to talk past what I already know I said your name like a line I rehearsed Waited to hear if youd say it was worse I dont remember the words that you chose Just how the room stayed exactly as closed Nothing I said could change what I read Same as the page I cant unsee Command F And it found you It doesn't move © 2026. Natalie Fades. All Rights Reserved.