Got these codependency issues God dammit, I miss you Just wasted all of my time Trying to fix you Should've been fixing myself What can I say I got issues Most of them mental Wish I had a good set of parentals And a good pair of genes Now you're haunting my dreams Your name on my lips every time that I scream Our sex, obscene Had you on both knees Now I'm the one praying Begging you to stay and What can I say then That hasn't been said I wish I was dead Wish I didn't have these Thoughts of you all in my head Thought I was over it, but I'm under Got any thoughts of me, I wonder Were we meant to be, or a blunder Wish I was drinking Just steadily sinking Guess you don't want me Or my ring then Never forget the day we met Drove six hours just to see you Now you're hating me Not a single thought of dating me No more thoughts of being raped by me Just escaping me You imprisoned me in that cell Put me in that jail Flames so hot put me in this hell Left me alone and helpless How could you be so selfish So hellish, sipping on that glass While you watch me burn While you watch me yearn Love was thick, now it's spurned Look at me stupid Well I guess I'll never learn Guess my history, I'm repeating Attitude, self-defeating And times just measured by the glass Is it half empty, half full I don't even know anymore Don't have any direction Just craving affection No time for discretion Guess I'm the exception Want succession From this reality Time to breathe As I waste time with this pad and pen On what we could have been It's getting bad again Payment for my sins And past transgressions Writing all these words But I don't think it's helping Shit gets depressing I'd talk about better days If I ever had one Me being happy Hard to fathom Trapped in my mind It's holding me ransom And I don't meet the demand Never could, never will Odds of it getting better, nill Wish the weather'd still Just addicted to love With no way of coping Just need my oxytocin So, I guess I'm just broken Truer words, never spoken Mental obsessions, separation anxiety I'm just trying to be Wish I could set my mind at ease Eyes on the prize, always out of reach Wish I could find my peace But I won't until I rest in it Just watching the time tick While I'm burning my candle at both ends Watching the flames do what we couldn't Meet in the middle Fuck, I guess life's just a riddle And I don't have a clue
