Your hand shook when you set my key down You kept the table between us I watched you measure every move I made Like one wrong breath could start it again I did that I put that distance in your body First comes the need, then the reason I invent Then the careful little edit that makes wrong look innocent I know the sequence cold, every turn before the drop Recognition isn't rescue when I still refuse to stop An ache behind my teeth, a fever in the grip I can trace it through my muscles as it tightens bit by bit But pain is not permission, and a craving is no shield Whatever bends inside me doesn't change what you must feel DON'T FORGIVE ME YET Don't make it easy to forget The urge is mine The hurt is real No sickness makes the damage heal DON'T FORGIVE ME YET I rehearsed being sorry while I hid the next excuse Kept the language clean enough to make the pattern hard to prove Said I hated what was happening, then guarded what I fed Put remorse around the habit like a bandage on the threat Now the pressure climbs again My jaw locks, my fingers twitch Every nerve demands relief Every memory answers, “This” I stand one step from repeating With no witness in the room Don't forgive me yet You don't owe me softer edges You can leave the key between us You can leave me with the wreckage So I slide the key back to you I move away from the door I delete the hidden route I kept returning toward No grand repair No claim that one clean moment clears the rest The ache stays where it started I accept what it has cost And when my hand begins to reach I close it I step back I let you go DON'T FORGIVE ME YET I stopped before I did it again The urge is mine Your distance stands I finally leave it in your hands DON'T FORGIVE ME YET It still hurts I still want it Nothing inside me has gone quiet But I moved my hand I took the loss I did not make you pay the cost GET OUT OF ME!
