Don't Say It

🖤🌑LYRICS & MUSIC BY: @Spaceghostbones: ---------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------------------- Don't say it I’ll break If you name the part I fake Don't say it I’ll hear What I’ve buried Over the years I lied when I said I was healing I just got better at bleeding clean Called it growth when I meant retreat Called it peace when I meant I’m too tired to speak There’s a voice in my head that sounds like her Says you’re too much and maybe she’s right I’ve been folding myself into shapes that please But no one asks what it costs me to be Don't say it I’ll break If you name the part I fake Don't say it I’ll hear What I’ve buried Over the years Over the years I miss people I don’t even like Grieve what hurt me just to give it some light I say I’m tired But not what that means The truth sounds sour In a world that wants clean Like I envy the dead Like Yeah that's what I said Like Maybe I missed the turn Like I was built to survive But never taught how to return Never taught how to just feel alive You should be grateful You said you forgave them You’re not even sick enough to stop It's all in your head You chose this You're not allowed to stop even if you're broken You’re the reason it’s like this You're the reason it hurts this much It's all your fault It's all your fault You should just give up You should just give up Don't say it It’ll break If you You You You Don't say it It’ll break Don't say it It’ll break I pretend I don’t notice when they disappear Like I’m not someone you lose without fear I shrink my joy so no one leaves But grief doesn’t shrink it just changes keys I was the grown up when I was a child Knew how to bandage not how to be I’m fluent in everyone else’s pain But I speak my own like it’s foreign to me I just wanted someone to fight for me To break the silence out of spite for me To stay when even I lost sight of me To hold the line and get it right for me I just wanted someone to fight for me To break the silence out of spite for me To stay when even I lost sight of me To hold the line and get it right for me Get it right for me get it right for me Get it right for me get it right for me I said I was fine But I meant don’t ask I said I moved on But I live in the past I mourn people still breathing And parts of me no one believed in This isn’t poetry It’s a list Of everything I haven’t forgiven And yes My own name is on it Right under Girl who kept on living Don't say it I’ll break If you name the part I fake Don't say it I’ll hear What I’ve buried over the years Don't say it I’ll break If you name the part I fake Don't say it I’ll hear What I’ve buried over the years Don't say it But I want you to Please say it So I can too