Lyrics: [Intro, Industrial ambience, Distant guitar feedback] Seven years And the night still knows your name Seven years And I still wake up the same [Verse 1, Fenix, Fragile close-mic vocal] Every time I close my eyes I'm back there again My mind rewrites the nightmare like it never wants to end I hear the chaos, then I wake before the morning light Heart racing in the darkness, trying to convince myself I'm alright Seven years have passed but grief doesn't own a clock Some nights it barely whispers, some nights it fucking knocks I know it's only memory twisting while I sleep But losing you left shadows that my tired mind still keeps [Pre-Chorus, Dissonant guitar rising] Wake up Sit up Try to breathe again Same room Same dark Same memories in my head [Chorus, Huge downtuned guitars, Cracked shouted vocal] Seven years of nightmares Seven years of missing you Seven years of waking up Wishing none of it was true I'm depressed as fuck And I don't know what to do Every night my broken mind Keeps dragging me back to you Seven years of nightmares And I still fucking miss you [Post-Chorus, Gang vocals, Feedback] I miss you I miss you Seven years later I still miss you [Verse 2, Dirty bass, Sparse drums] Daylight comes and everybody thinks I'm doing fine They don't see the nights when grief starts fucking with my mind I learned how to smile when somebody says your name But underneath the surface I still carry all that pain I keep asking questions with no answers coming back Why my first real love became the loss I couldn't unpack I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know where I belong I just know seven years can feel impossibly long [Pre-Chorus, Fenix, Trembling vocal] Wake up Sit up Tell myself I'm here One room One night Trying to outlast the fear [Chorus, Explosive guitars, Double vocal] Seven years of nightmares Seven years of missing you Seven years of waking up Wishing none of it was true I'm depressed as fuck And I don't know what to do Every night my broken mind Keeps dragging me back to you Seven years of nightmares And I still fucking miss you [Breakdown, Crushing guitars, Fenix, Raw vocal breakdown] I'M TIRED OF THE NIGHTMARES I'M TIRED OF WAKING UP LIKE THIS I'M TIRED OF SEVEN FUCKING YEARS FEELING LIKE I NEVER LEFT IT I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I FUCKING MISS YOU I don't know what to do with all this pain I don't know how to make my head feel quiet again So I'm saying it out loud I'm not okay tonight I need somebody here Till I see the morning light [Bridge, Bare piano, Room noise, Fenix, Cracked quiet vocal] The nightmare isn't you It's losing you again It's waking in a world Where I can't change how it ended I wish I could remember Only every good day Without my sleeping mind Pulling me back toward the pain But tonight I'll tell somebody I can't carry this alone I'll stay where I am heard Instead of hiding on my own [Build, Low guitar pulse, Drums rising] Seven years Still here Seven years Still here I miss you Still here I'm hurting Still here [Final Chorus, Massive guitars, Raw soaring vocal] Seven years of nightmares Seven years of missing you Seven years of waking up Wishing none of it was true I'm depressed as fuck But I know what I can do When the night gets overwhelming I'll let somebody help me through Seven years of nightmares And I'll always remember you [Final Post-Chorus, Instruments breaking apart] I miss you I miss you Seven years later I still miss you But morning comes Morning comes Even after nights like this [Outro, Detuned clean guitar, Fenix, Exhausted natural vocal] Seven years And I still wish you were here Tonight was bad So I'm not staying alone with it I'll talk to somebody I'll make it through the night [Feedback fades] [End]
