Follow your intuition That’s what everyone says Well, I’ve followed the H. e double hockey-sticks Out of mine, for the last five years, Isn’t something supposed to happen at some point, here? Little tid-bit if I’m on the right Track, or running in the wrong Race al-together on the wrong night? … … … I will not participate in Games, or manipulations I’m not cut out for it- I tend to be the biggest Cheer-leader, ohhh- the enthusiasm! . . . Kinda was hoping There might be somebody Cheering back for me- Who’s emotions from Within extending through Spirit, could handle my own, A soul-deep connection But it can’t be forced or Wished and hoped for, After a while its like lying Even if by silence, omission. Doesn’t feel so good. … … … … Conversations So much left unsaid I can feel each word Left swallowed back I experience the ebb And flow, push and pull I don’t understand the Aversions, it’s all I’ve Ever dreamed of- a Telepathic, spiritual Relationship, I’ve Wished I could Celebrate, with touch . . . I’m human, a woman, A passionate being Feeling just released, Wanting to learn, to Cherish, ecstatic intimate expression. Something sacred. . . . Not a cruel obsession I would hurt with- .. … … Inner conflicts So like my own I am so very private Except with those I love- . . . Maturity dipped in Wisdom, I’ve experienced Learned how to regulate My emotions Dealing with burying Loved ones, human And the furry ones. Just as difficult Just as hard to hold Is the pain of loving Someone in silence . . . . Won’t be shown, overtly No affectionate kissing Too much time spent Ducking bubbling girl- Checking myself and My intentions Let alone every word to Out fit I wear- out of Respect of friendships . . . Kinda want to let the eggs-shells go Be more authentic- Communicating is so liberating It’s taking accountability- when Honest, genuine, real. … … … As the detaching From materialistic living, I will surrender the Negative, lower frequencies Into the Ether I don’t need to cling even to those . . . So if love should decide To take my hand, Give something more a try- I bring Master level skills To the table Compassion, I can Compromise I’d be aggravated too if someone Was smothering, but once in a while I love reassuring, I live by a code Loyalty, trust, and Team Player-Efforts Togetherness even When separate- … … … I know people Change and grow Along and with The experiences Situations change, Why not other things Perspectives… … … Sometimes things begin For one reason, one Kind of intent, and As time goes on, Anything can transform . . . .I know how to forgive And not horde angries And still if Love Chooses to remain aloof I won’t hurt as bad as In times before, I’ve Detached a little, by Learning to love myself Sending the feelings Right back inside myself Now my intuition says… . . . Let Go and Let Flow . . . . … … …
