I keep watching from a safe distance 'Cause I don't dare to show you All the things I keep inside That's how I avoid the feeling That you might flinch at a sudden sound If I happened to reveal them That you might be disgusted by the truth By all the ugliness you're seeing So I stay here Just far enough away Close enough to want you Too scared to make you stay I stay here Where nothing can begin You never get to leave me If I never let you in So I keep everything half-said And leave before you notice I make a joke, I change the subject Anything to lose the focus You look at me like nothing's wrong And somehow that feels worse 'Cause if you knew what I was hiding Would you still look at me first? So I stay here Just far enough away Close enough to want you Too scared to make you stay I stay here Where nothing can begin You never get to leave me If I never let you in Sometimes I think you'd understand Sometimes I almost tell you Then something in me shuts it down Before the words can get through And maybe there's no awful truth Maybe that's the cruelest part I built the thing I'm scared you'll see Inside my head And keep it in the dark So I stay here Just far enough away Close enough to want you Too scared to make you stay I stay here Where nothing can begin You never get to leave me If I never let you in
