I used to think silence was safer Turns out… it’s just louder I got a house full of voices in my head Some of them praise me, some wish I was dead I smile for the mirror, lie to my phone Say I’m “doing great” when I’m barely at home I was chasing respect like it owed me a name Now I’m dodging the cost of the choices I made Every win got a shadow, every crown got a weight And the louder they cheer, the harder I break They don’t see the pause between breaths Where I question myself and everyone else These are letters I never sent Words I swallowed, nights I bent I said “I’m fine” like I meant it While my chest kept screaming different These are letters I never sent If I wrote them, I’d have to admit That the strongest mask I ever wore Was pretending I didn’t need help They call it fame when it works They call it ego when it hurts They call you legend when you win And a problem when you’re human first I missed birthdays chasing deadlines Missed myself trying to be “that guy” Now my past taps me on the shoulder Asking when I plan to come back alive I taught myself not to cry Then wondered why I couldn’t feel Built a fortress out of pride Then complained it wasn’t real I wrote my pain into bars So I wouldn’t bleed on the floor But some wounds don’t heal in rhythm They just wait behind the door These are letters I never sent Apologies wrapped in defense I forgive myself in theory But the mirror’s not convinced If my kid ever asks me Why I wasn’t always there I won’t blame the grind or the pressure I’ll say… I was scared These are letters I never sent But I’m reading them out loud If surviving is a victory Then I’m claiming it now These are letters I never sent But tonight I let them breathe If I’m honest for a moment Maybe that’s how I heal me Yeah… I’m still here
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