# NOT ENOUGH FOR US *Kinetic Poetry* [Intro: solo low female, dry, tired; frequent small sob-like voice flips] I'm still loving you. You're not loving me. I'm still loving you. And you don't even miss me. [Verse 1: tight Stax groove; low chest voice, sarcasm, tiny failed-note flips; soft female backing harmonies] Tell me what I'm supposed to do with all this love I have for you. It doesn't leave because you do. It doesn't care what's fair or true. [Dry, bitter] I try to hate you. I really try. But every time I get that far, I find another reason why I can't. [Almost spoken] And God, I hate that I can't. [Chorus: next line FEMALE GOSPEL TRIO ONLY, low close harmony; lead silent, no shouting] I can't love enough for us! [Lead returns, low-mid; choir behind her, soft wordless harmonies; short sob-like vocal flips] I can't make you feel what I feel. I can give you everything I've got, but I can't make any of it real for you. [Dry, cracked] Not for you. [Next line CHOIR ONLY; lead silent] I can't love enough for us! [Lead, tired; tiny flip on 'true'] And I hate that it's true. [Verse 2: steady groove, sharper sarcasm, narrow range, frequent small voice cracks] So what do you want me to change? My heart? My voice? My fucking name? [Mocking, exhausted] Would you love me if I needed less? If I stopped asking what's left? If I smiled when you pulled away, and called it love anyway? Just tell me what you want. I'll try. [Half-spoken] Look at me. I'm bargaining with someone who's already said goodbye. [Pre-Chorus: low register, tiny crying breaks, choir soft behind] And the worst part is you're not even wrong. You don't owe me love just because I've loved you for so long. [Chorus: next line CHOIR ONLY, restrained low gospel harmony; lead silent] I can't love enough for us! [Lead resumes, broken vowels, choir wordless behind] I can't make you feel what I feel. I can give you everything I've got, but I can't make any of it real for you. [Exhausted] Not for you. [Next line CHOIR ONLY; lead silent] I can't love enough for us! [Lead, cracked 'true'] And I hate that it's true. [Bridge: low half-spoken anger, frequent failed-note flips, bass and drums keep pulse] I want you to be cruel. Give me something I can blame. [Clipped] Say you lied. Say you used me. Say you never felt the same. Because I could survive being angry at you. [Controlled fury, no rise] But what the hell am I supposed to do with someone who just stopped loving me? [Break: bass and kick only; choir out, broken low voice] You have every right to leave. I know. I know. [Almost spoken] I just wish knowing that made it hurt less. [Final Chorus: next line CHOIR ONLY, low restrained harmony; lead silent] I can't love enough for us! [Lead, defiant but drained; choir behind, frequent small sob-like flips] I've tried until there's nothing left. And you can walk away from me without becoming someone else. [Dry, quiet] You're not a monster. I'm not a fool. There's just no way to make one heart beat for two. [Outro: low female lead, multiple tiny broken-vowel flips, subtle backing harmonies] I'm still loving you. You're not loving me. I'm still loving you. And you don't even miss me. [Choir out; lead alone, flat and spoken] And neither one of us is lying. [End: abrupt stop]
