(Intro) (The sound of a steady heart monitor beep—beep... beep... beep...—but it’s distorted, layered with the heavy "24/7 static" of your anxiety.) (Verse 1) I’m in a blue gown, I’m lying on the bed But the sirens are screaming inside of my head There’s no white ceiling, just the 5th-period lights And the ghost of the girl who lost all of her fights You think that I’m fine 'cause I’m sitting right here But I’m drowning in static and paralyzed fear While you’re scrolling through photos and chasing a "like" I’m waiting for the next panic needle to strike. (Pre-Chorus) The long erosion has taken its toll The blue light is burning a hole in your soul You lied to my mom, you said we were through But you’re the one breaking my spirit in two. (Chorus) I’m lying in the ICU! My mind is in intensive care because of you! The monitors are flatlining, the oxygen is thin While you’re letting the digital poison back in The trauma is a trauma, the damage is real I’m hooked to the machines just to learn how to feel Yeah, my mind’s in the ICU... And the "Code Red" is you. (Verse 2) You argue with the sub, you demand your device While I’m freezing my skin with a handful of ice You claim it’s for anxiety, your "IEP" shield But the wounds that you’ve given me never have healed You’re "married to the glow," you’re a ghost in the chair Sucking the life out of the homeroom air An "infinite cycle," a loop of the pain You’re the blood-clotting pressure inside of my vein. (Bridge) (Tempo becomes heavy, like a racing heartbeat) Clear! (Sound of an electric shock) Shock the system, try to wake up! Clear! I’m overflowing, I’ve had enough! You never loved me, that’s what you said Now the girl that you knew is clinically dead! I’m spiraling, Landon! I’m hitting the floor! I can’t be your "emergency contact" no more! (Verse 3) Mr. Karras is gone, and my safety is too Now I’m trapped in a room with the "static" of you You’re moody, you’re toxic, you’re addicted to glass While I’m fighting for life in the back of the class Lies to your mother, and lies to my own You’re a king on a throne made of a stolen cell phone. (Verse 4) he doctors are pacing, they’re checking the charts But they can’t find the cure for these fractured parts You’re out in the hallway, eyes on the "feed" Ignoring the wounds that you made me bleed. You’re "moody" and "restless" when the battery’s lowBut I’m the one dealing with the status of "No"Your phone is the oxygen you think that you need While I’m in this trauma unit, watching you lead. (Verse 5) Lies on the clipboard, lies in the hall You tell both our mothers you’ve done nothing at all But the "infinite cycle" is written in red On the EKG rhythm inside of my head You claim it’s an "IEP" keeping you glued To a piece of plastic and a digital feud While I’m fighting a spiral, a 10th-grade war And you’re just a ghost by the ICU door. (Verse 6) The "static" is spiking, it’s 24/7 I’m looking for Mr. Karras, looking for heaven But I’m trapped in 5th period, trapped in the white Of a hospital room in the middle of the light You said you never loved me—it’s etched in my skin The "Long Erosion" where the poison crept in But the "Sudden Floor" is starting to rise And I’m seeing the "married to the glow" in your eyes. (Outro) (The heart monitor starts to speed up, then slows down to a calm, steady rhythm) My mind is in the ICU... But I’m checking myself out. I’m pulling the wires. I’m silencing the shout. Survival mode: Active. The static: Still there. But I’m finally breathing... Different air. (The final beep turns into the sound of a school bell ringing.)
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