I got out

[90s power ballad intro, electric piano arpeggios, synth pad, 76bpm, E minor, four bars only] [Verse 1] I still know the shape of how she laughed before the words came out I know the particular quiet after she'd been crying on a call [bass enters, hi-hat eighth notes, snare on 2 and 4] Someone loves her now in the same room with their hands I relearn how to want that not to hurt most days it almost works [Verse 2] I'm better — I can feel it in the mornings the way the weight sits further from my chest I've even meant it once or twice when I said fine which I'm told is progress which I'm told is best [clean electric guitar enters, chorus pedal, bass walks] But there's a room inside me with no furniture just the outline where the waiting used to live and I walk past it and I don't go in [brass stab — into hook] [HOOK] [strings hit, gated snare enters full] I got out I got out The door was real But some part of me is still standing at a gate that never came [Chorus] [orchestral strings, brass, choir pad, driving kick, gated reverb snare] I moved on the way a window moves the light — it comes through different, not the same [everything pulls back — voice and piano only] And I've loved since the kind that fills the room, the kind that stays but October does a thing I can't explain [full arrangement returns, strings peak] Something in me learned her like a language and still thinks in her when nothing's in the way [snare crack, bass drops, reverb washes out] [Bridge — emotional peak, key lifts] [key lifts minor third, strings intensify, drums drop to piano and cello only] The strange part isn't missing her it's how I've stopped how clean it sits inside me now [silence — one bar] Like a healed thing you only notice when the cold comes [brass swell] I don't want her back I want back whoever I was before I learned to love at a distance and call it enough [full bar silence — massive snare into final chorus] [Final Chorus] [full orchestral hit, brass, layered strings, choir pad, grand piano] I moved on I wear it like a coat that almost fits familiar in the shoulders, wrong across the chest [brass drops, strings carry] And she's out there living in a life that doesn't know my name and I'm glad for her I'm glad [voice alone — one bar] I got out — just not the same Almost whole — almost [piano — two chords — unresolved — held] [Outro — sixteen seconds] [electric piano arpeggios, four bars, everything fades] [spoken, no music] I hope you're sleeping [single piano note — not the root — silence]