They say everybody falls sometimes Just get back up ya gotta keep trying They say say ya gotta hit the bottom before You find your way back to the top once more But what do you do when it feels Like you've been sittin there for so long That the pain just kills Where do I turn when the pieces that fell Are so scattered and torn up Ill never be whole and my spirit is not well If there is really a hell I MUST BE somewhere below that place I CANT STAND THE MIRROR when it shows my face THE GUILT from the pleasure THE GIFTS I have been given THE WASTED treasure I WISH I never knew how bad it hurt to be livin THE SHELL OF THE MAN THEY ALL THOUGHT I WOULD BE WHY CANT I LIVE THE LIFE WILL I EVER BE SET FREE I spent many days with the Lord I thought I was saved but somehow he ignored me I tried so hard to be true To follow the rules what they are rules that I knew Maybe none of this was ever for me Maybe Im a mistake never meant to be Maybe im not meant to see Heaven at all This life good for nothing I just fall and I fall If there is anything out there I wish it would find me Show me how to leave it all behind me Ive tried what felt right I tried to be Holy But I just want her to love me and hold me TONIGHT I dont know much but I know im losing this fight TONIGHT
