I kept the ache behind my smile Fed it static, fed it lies Every mirror learned my name Then cut it out and watched me shake I wore my body like a room Locked the doors and blamed the moon But something starving in my chest Keeps begging you to do the rest Don’t be gentle Don’t be kind Mercy leaves me split inside Press the silence Make it crack I can’t live if I come back Devour me whole Bite down the ache I am so tired Of trying not to break Make it stop Make me real Clamp on the pain Till I finally feel Devour me whole Drag me below I don’t want peace I want you to know I can’t breathe I can’t heal Devour me whole Make me feel I kissed the floor of every fear Called it strength for twenty years Now my veins are wired wrong And every prayer comes out as wrong So take the noise beneath my ribs Take the rot I learned to kiss If I am more than ruined meat Prove it with your mouth on me Don’t forgive me Don’t look away I need the hurt to change its shape Hold the fracture Split the seal I need something sharp enough to heal Devour me whole Bite down the ache I am so tired Of trying not to break Make it stop Make me real Clamp on the pain Till I finally feel Devour me whole Drag me below I don’t want peace I want you to know I can’t breathe I can’t heal Devour me whole Make me feel If I vanish in your hunger Maybe I can start again If your body is the thunder Let it drown the shape I’ve been Not a rescue Not a cure Just a mouth I can endure Not a heaven Not control Just the end of being hollow Say it Want it Take it End it Hold me Break me Claim me Make me MAKE ME FEEL Devour me whole Bite down the ache I am so tired Of trying not to break Make it stop Make me real Clamp on the pain Till I finally feel Devour me whole Drag me below I don’t want peace I want you to know I can’t breathe I can’t heal Devour me whole Make me feel Don’t let me crawl back out the same Don’t leave me breathing with this name Devour me whole Make me feel
