Talked to god the other night He said it’ll be alright Why doesn’t it seem alright Like tonight’s another night Of this hopeless and reckless fight I trace constellations in the cracks of my ceiling Make wishes I don’t say out loud I wear my sadness like lace on my skin Still hoping you’ll notice me now I write love letters to ghosts in my phone They never text me back I keep my heart in a porcelain bowl One touch and it shatters to ash Chorus I’m a fairy at three in the morning With mascara tears and a mouth full of truth I bite my tongue till it’s bleeding roses Just so I don’t say I miss you I dance with my shadows in moonlight Spin till the pain feels cute If healing means forgetting your name Then baby I’m doomed I sleep with my feelings under my pillow Like maybe they’ll soften by dawn Every promise you made was written in pencil Mine were carved into bone I laugh like I’m fine, I swear I’m dramatic But this ache don’t play pretend I fall in love with the idea of peace Then wake up alone again Bridge If heaven’s real, it’s quiet like this Cigarette stars and a trembling wish If hell’s a boy who almost stayed Then I’ve been praying the wrong damn way Outro So I bleed pretty ink in a midnight hue Stitch myself up with silver and blue If surviving means losing the spark in my chest I’ll stay broken, obsessed, and soft at my best Yeah, I got a headache But at least I still felt And if this is the cost of being alive I’ll write myself through another night anyway
