Loop in My Loser Brain

[Verse 1] Wake up, shame on the nightstand Same clothes, same floor, same trash can Browser tabs full of plans that I never ran Scrollin’ past people I can’t stand, ‘cause they took a chance I’m that “maybe next year” Turned to “maybe never,” now I drink the fear Family talkin’ like “he was so gifted” Yeah, I gift-wrapped failure and I shipped it I’m the friend you don’t brag on Whole life feelin’ like a half-finished add-on Dreams in a notebook, dust on the cover Who wanna love a joke that can’t love themself either [Chorus] I’m a loser, failed the mission All I ever rap is my own dysfunction Same sad song on a scratched-up loop Broken-record boy in a worn-out booth Yeah, I’m a dropout from my own potential Turned my brain into a rental If they want pain, I’m the one to choose Sad rap addict, all I do is lose (all I do is lose) [Verse 2] Scroll my past like “who is that kid?” Eyes bright, big talk, thought I’d really do it big Now I’m starin’ at the fridge for an hour Empty like my inbox, empty like my power Therapist say, “try gratitude” I’m thankful I exist to ruin the mood Every party I attend, I’m the grey cloud Standin’ in the corner, headphones, tuned out I could make a move but I hate my reflection Every mirror show a long list of corrections People say “bro, your words helped me cope” Funny how my breakdown became they hope [Chorus] I’m a loser, failed the mission All I ever rap is my own dysfunction Same sad song on a scratched-up loop Broken-record boy in a worn-out booth Yeah, I’m a dropout from my own potential Turned my brain into a rental If they want pain, I’m the one to choose Sad rap addict, all I do is lose (all I do is lose) [Verse 3] Every bar feel like self-harm lite Autobiography of all the things I did trite Label me “relatable,” that’s code for “hurt” Turn trauma to tracks, rub salt in the dirt I tried flex rap once, it felt fake Can’t brag ‘bout wins that I never made All I know is late fees, missed calls, sick days Dead stare, deep sighs, cheap takeaways I laugh it off, that’s my favorite disguise Jokes on me with the tear-stained eyes If failure had a face in the dictionary frame I’d sign it with an autograph under my name (yeah) [Bridge] [Beat drops to bass and faint keys] Maybe I’m stuck ‘cause I love this prison Comfort in the chaos, rusted rhythm If I ever get better, what I talk about? Would I still have a voice if I lost this doubt? I hate this spiral but I hold it close My worst habits are the ones I chose If healing means I gotta lose this muse Tell me, what’s a loser with nothing to lose? [Chorus] I’m a loser, failed the mission All I ever rap is my own dysfunction Same sad song on a scratched-up loop Broken-record boy in a worn-out booth Yeah, I’m a dropout from my own potential Turned my brain into a rental If they want pain, I’m the one to choose Sad rap addict, all I do is lose (all I do is lose)