You asked if I was okay I said, “Just tired, that’s all” The truth was sitting on my tongue I let the silence fall You waited by the door I couldn't ask you to stay You gave me time to find the words I watched you walk away I knew what I was feeling I just couldn't make it clear The words were right there with me I couldn't let you hear All the things I never said Still come back when I'm alone All the times I needed you Couldn't let it show I kept waiting for a moment When the words would come out right While I searched for something better The chance passed me by I made a joke You laughed along We changed the subject Moved on You never knew What I'd rehearsed How “I'm alright” Could mean the worst I knew what I was feeling I just couldn't make it clear I kept waiting for the right words While the distance grew between us All the things I never said Still come back when I'm alone All the times I needed you Couldn't let it show I kept waiting for a moment When the words would come out right While I searched for something better The chance passed me by Maybe you were waiting too For something real to make it through Maybe you were scared as well I gave you nothing you could tell We stood there with so much between us Neither knowing where to start I kept the words behind my teeth Called it guarding my heart If I could stand there once again I wouldn't need the perfect sentence I wouldn't have to understand it all Before I let you see me struggling I'd just say, “I'm not okay I don't know how to explain If you have a little time I'd like to try to let you in” All the things I never said I can't go back and change I needed you I was scared I didn't know how to say it I kept waiting for a moment When I'd finally feel ready Maybe all you needed Was to know what was inside me I'm still learning How to speak Even when the words Come out incomplete I wish I'd told you then.
