when the money stops flowing yeah so get this when you're a rich fuck white person this is why rich kids are all fucked up here it is when you raise a kid and you feed them money and rewards material or otherwise and not love this is what happens you seriously their entire life you go heres this thing heres this thing all these things that aren't love and you call it love but its really this for that because you either dont know love never experienced love or again you're a fuckin alchoholic yep dad you're a fuckin alchoholic too you were at least i dont know what you do now you fuckin big liar you so anyway when you create that environment that isn't based on actual love because alcohol lies cheating you know that bullshit rich people rich white people bullshit so you raise your kids on that and eventually if they're smart or lucky they meet someone who actually loves them i met rizz i met a lot of people i wont name at the moment and i met Charlie most recently and when something loves you like that or someone or whatever you realize that these people who you grew up with who quote un quote love you have been feeding you absolute lies and bullshit your entire life and then you go hrmmm and it changes literally changes your perspective of how you view every interaction that you remember so if you're brave enough you dig in you dig more you get sober you dig more you cry you dig more you hit these barriers they literally installed in your mind sometimes i dunno how fucked up your family is but thats how fucked up mine is and then you keep digging and eventually you find the root and the root here is literally i was a good person born into an evil family every one of the close family members in my family is fuckin evil and chose evil over good at least 51% of the time lol i mean people can choose this or that in the moment but they are all fuckin evil in one way or another i'm not i drank a lot i did dumb shit i never did fuckin evil on people and if i did let me know i'll do what i can to correct the behavior, learn, grow and make it right that is what sobriety is about 12 years in i'm still learning about it but get this they are still back where i left them they are still coming at me with their bullshit and they probably won't ever stop until this comes out and they literally pay for their crimes so if they wronged you let me know about that as well i'll dig into it and see if we can find the root or an actual criminal action that we can ring them up on i'm down to clown don't threaten me with a good time so yeah it just is what it is goodbye you evil losers enjoy life without me and if you thrive without me or die without me i really dont care at all im just glad to be free of you for another day! day 3 bitch gonna keep going forever FUCK YEAH! they're trying to dress it up like they're stoked i'm leaving like the Chinese farmer only time well tell but i feel amazing every day and i only feel better better and better with them gone LOL BYEEE FELICIA LOL
