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Everyone's trying to get it off faster Meal prep master, a salt packet oughta work Rice cakes and coffee to head off the chatter Anything that fills me feels like I did it wrong Didn't think I changed that much 'til they clocked it A comment thread deciding what I get to call myself No need to say it twice, the room already caught it 'Cause even I check the mirror like I'm evidence Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, body count Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? Hey, hey, hะตy, hey, hey, hey, bะพdy count Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? How normal it is to hold my breath at dinner To cross my ankles, tuck my shirt, sit smaller than before I rub cream on the marks, but they keep showing up Someone says "clean eating" like it fixes everything But I've already got a doctor who knows me Signing forms with my hands still shaking in the lobby Said recovery would be easy if I keep my head down I won't lie to you, I stayed awake counting out the weeks Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, body count Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, body count Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? How normal it is to skip lunch and dessert And still hear my own name used like a punchline So I run every day, but I don't think it helps So I look up side effect I already know by heart Spent so many years being sold as a shape Before I could blink, they were grading me in my twenties And I got quieter just so I could fit it Now all that I read is, "She looks better when she's smaller" Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, body count Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, body count Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, body count (how normal it is to hold my breath at dinner) Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? (to cross my ankles, tuck my shirt, sit smaller than before) Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, body count (I rub cream on the marks, but they keep showing up) Hey, hey, hey, hey, are you watching me? (someone says "clean eating" like it fixes everything)
