🖤Veil💙👄

Verse 1 I never said it out loud That was my discipline Kept my face clean kept the damage elegant You moved through the room like nothing had happened because nothing had happened to you I knew where to stand I knew when to smile I knew how to leave with my hands at my sides You were not cruel You were not mine That was the knife Pre-Chorus I could have made it ugly I could have made you turn I could have put my heart where it had no right to burn But wanting is a fever when it cannot ask for proof So I swallowed every word until the silence started moving Chorus Veil I loved you under the veil Veil I kept it under the veil No bell No witness No hand reaching back Veil I lost you under the veil Veil You never knew me that way I kept the door inside me open It never opened into you Post-Chorus Under the veil Under the veil Under the veil Under the veil Hook Under the veil Under the veil I loved you there You never knew me there Under the veil Under the veil I kept it there I kept it there Verse 2 I made a language out of not touching Small private damage Perfectly dressed I heard your laughter lean into someone else and something in me stepped back from the glass I did not want to own you I did not want to win I wanted one clear second where your eyes stayed still So I became careful So I became good So I disappeared exactly where I stood Pre-Chorus I could have said your name too late I could have made it strange I could have broken the little bridge that let me stay near But hunger has a voice that ruins what it loves So I held it in my mouth until it learned my blood Chorus Veil I loved you under the veil Veil I kept it under the veil No bell No witness No hand reaching back Veil I lost you under the veil Veil You never knew me that way I kept the door inside me open It never opened into you Bridge Do not mistake me for silence Silence has teeth Silence has rooms Mine had your face in every doorway None of them belonged to you I was not asking to be rescued I was not begging to be seen I was learning how a body survives with a life it has to keep under Build No bell No witness No hand reaching back No bell No witness Still I stayed Final Chorus Veil I loved you under the veil Veil I kept it under the veil No bell No witness No hand reaching back Veil I lost you under the veil Veil You never knew me that way I kept the door inside me open It never opened into you Veil I loved you under the veil Veil I changed under the veil Some loves do not become stories They become the thing you escape Final Post Chorus Under the veil Under the veil I loved you there You never knew me there Under the veil Under the veil