Join us at The Underground: https://radio.aiu.fm/ Discord.gg/aiufm ------------------ [Intro] I used to think I’d feel it If I went too far. [Verse 1] I don’t make plans for the morning. Leave the blinds shut, phone on silent. Used to cry when I talked to God. Now I trail off, forget where I was. Still wear the cross underneath my shirt. Touch it sometimes, see if it hurts. I miss the guilt. At least back then I thought I had a way back in. [Pre-Hook] I used to say, “Forgive me.” Now I say, “It’s been a while.” Then I sit there feeling stupid, Like You need me to explain why. [Hook] I’m falling further. It doesn’t hurt the same. I used to beg to feel less. Now I’m scared I got my way. God, I’m getting used to this. That’s what keeps me up. I still want You to find me. I keep hoping You won’t look. [Verse 2] I leave the room when my mother prays. Don’t wanna hear her say my name. She asks for peace I keep refusing. I say I’m fine so she won’t lose it. Still know the words, don’t say ’em back. Can’t ask for help with a lie like that. I’m scared You’ll answer when I call.. And I’ll still choose this over it all. [Pre-Hook] I don’t need another reason. I know everyone I’d hurt. Knowing should’ve been enough. I hate how little knowing works. [Hook] I’m falling further. It doesn’t hurt the same. I used to beg to feel less. Now I’m scared I got my way. God, I’m getting used to this. That’s what keeps me up. I still want You to find me. I keep hoping You won’t look. [Bridge] I don’t know how to want You more Than what I’m tryna quit. I keep waiting to mean “I’m sorry.” I hate admitting it. [Final Hook] I’m falling further. It doesn’t hurt the same. I used to beg to feel less. Now I’m scared I got my way. God, I’m getting used to this. I don’t know what comes next. I still wear the cross You hang from. I just hide it when I’m asked. [Outro] I used to think I’d feel it If I went too far. Maybe I passed it. Maybe I’m still going.
