You said Call when youre better Blue pharmacy bag on the dresser Half a ginger ale going flat You said Text me when youre feeling better Like better was a date I could have I typed Im okay then erased it Couldnt make my thumbs hit send Your birthday lit up on my screen You never asked where Id been I know I stopped answering I couldnt talk that long But I thought somebody would knock When I stayed gone I still check the driveway Every time the headlights slow I know it aint your car I still look though You went on with your Fridays I learned every paint chip that was peeling I can say I dont blame you That doesnt make me not feel it Slow down Keep going I still look The group chat filled with bar receipts Somebody wore my old black coat I left a skull under the picture Then cried when nobody wrote One friend sent Thinking of you Two months after my last scan I put a pink heart under it So she wouldnt feel bad I know you had your own life I know the whole world dont stop But I counted every engine That turned past my block I still check the driveway Every time the headlights slow I know it aint your car I still look though You went on with your Fridays I learned every paint chip that was peeling I can say I dont blame you That doesnt make me not feel it I let the phone ring twice Then killed it with my thumb I wanted you to prove you meant it By calling more than once That aint fair I know it Still knowing dont undo that I made it easy to leave me Then hated you for that I still check the driveway Every time the headlights slow I know it aint your car I still look though You went on with your Fridays I got good at disappearing I can say I dont blame you That dont make me mean it Headlights slow Keep going I looked anyway
