Every goodbye takes something with it, A little more than I can replace I leave with lighter hands each time, But heavier memories to face I wear old echoes in my heartbeat Names that never really left Funny how I keep losing pieces While everyone else keeps what's next Losing me has never ruined anyone For once I want my absence to sting I want my silence to be deafening I want my leaving to be catastrophic I want, just for once, to be the kind of loss that lingers Every person leaves a fingerprint Even if they never mean to stay I can still trace every outline Long after they've walked away I wonder if I've ever lived In someone else's missing, too Or if I'm only learning how To let go without leaving a bruise Every time I lose somebody I lose a little piece of me I carry every almost forever Every "we" that couldn't be If I'm made of everyone I've loved Tell me what I'm turning into When I leave, will there be a space That still remembers I was there? Maybe I don't need to be unforgettable Maybe I just want a heart somewhere To pause when it hears my name Maybe I just want to believe That somebody, somewhere Would notice the quiet When I'm gone
