Pills

Aesthetic rap, scenecore, classic, dark, phonk, trap, violin, lofi

...Wake up, waste day, fade away face gray,
Phantom in my mirror sayin’ “We ain’t okay.”
Bed like a coffin, comfort got claws,
Eyes like TV static, scrollin' through flaws.
Forgettin’ what the morning even smells like... light hurts,
Curtains closed so long, they became part the dirt.
Feelin' feral in my flesh, tryna stretch through the stutter,
Voice thin, veins thick with a thousand muttered
Excuses can’t do this, not now, not yet,
I been postponin’ peace like a paycheck debt.
Every door’s a mountain, every text a spike,
Ghostin' my friends 'cause my chest too tight.
And these pills... yeah, they said “they’d fix my state,”
But they just numbed the fire and fed me fate.
I ain’t even sad I’m a shell on the shore,
Cryin' with no tears, dry drownin’, beggin’ for more.
Mom says “just try,” doc says “dose higher,”
But I’m sittin' in a hoodie tryna not expire.
Flickin’ lights off, countin’ all the cracks in the ceilin’,
Feelin’ like I’m fakin’ even when I’m feelin’.
I ain’t lazy I’m lost in the layers,
Talkin’ to the walls like they whispered my prayers.
Clock tickin’ I’m stickin’ to the same excuse,
“I’ll fix it tomorrow,” but tomorrow’s a ruse.
And I... I ... I can’t even scream in tune,
Just loops in my head like a cursed cartoon.
Problems pile up like my laundry, my dreams,
I’m stuck in the static of my own damn themes.
Every time I try to breathe, it breaks in half
Like the air don’t want me, like the world just laughs.
And I wanna cry oh God I wanna cry
But I’m stuck in a drought, just blinkin' at the sky.

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I been boxed in, locked in, blinds drawn tight, Sleepin’ through the sun like the world ain’t right. Tried steppin' out, heart punchin' my spine, Crowds lookin’ through me like I’m made of grime. Butterflies bitin’, my gut turnin’ sore, Collapse on the sidewalk, I don’t even know the score. Pills in my system, but I still feel dead Numb to the pain but it’s buzzin’ in my head. Every breath’s a burden, every blink is war, Feelin’ like I’m drownin' on the second floor. Tears on the edge, but they never fall through I cry in silence... even silence don’t move. (Tears on the edge, but they never fall through I cry in silence... even silence don’t move.) ...Wake up, waste day, fade away face gray, Phantom in my mirror sayin’ “We ain’t okay.” Bed like a coffin, comfort got claws, Eyes like TV static, scrollin' through flaws. Forgettin’ what the morning even smells like... light hurts, Curtains closed so long, they became part the dirt. Feelin' feral in my flesh, tryna stretch through the stutter, Voice thin, veins thick with a thousand muttered Excuses can’t do this, not now, not yet, I been postponin’ peace like a paycheck debt. Every door’s a mountain, every text a spike, Ghostin' my friends 'cause my chest too tight. And these pills... yeah, they said “they’d fix my state,” But they just numbed the fire and fed me fate. I ain’t even sad I’m a shell on the shore, Cryin' with no tears, dry drownin’, beggin’ for more. Mom says “just try,” doc says “dose higher,” But I’m sittin' in a hoodie tryna not expire. Flickin’ lights off, countin’ all the cracks in the ceilin’, Feelin’ like I’m fakin’ even when I’m feelin’. I ain’t lazy I’m lost in the layers, Talkin’ to the walls like they whispered my prayers. Clock tickin’ I’m stickin’ to the same excuse, “I’ll fix it tomorrow,” but tomorrow’s a ruse. And I... I ... I can’t even scream in tune, Just loops in my head like a cursed cartoon. Problems pile up like my laundry, my dreams, I’m stuck in the static of my own damn themes. Every time I try to breathe, it breaks in half Like the air don’t want me, like the world just laughs. And I wanna cry oh God I wanna cry But I’m stuck in a drought, just blinkin' at the sky.

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