[Intro] I got a smile on like it’s part of the dress code Clock in, stand straight, let the whole act echo Everybody says, “Keep going, you’re almost there” Funny how “almost” feels like breathing broken air I’m tired in my bones, tired under my skin Tired of losing fights nobody sees me in And I laugh just enough so nobody asks why But the truth’s been sitting heavy in the back of my eyes [Verse 1] I’m sick of being strong on command Sick of holding together what I don’t understand Sick of hearing “time heals” when time just stacks Another long week on another bent back I gave my best years to survival mode White-knuckle prayers on a dead-end road Got a head full of noise and a chest caved in Trying to call it a phase when it feels like the end I want peace, not applause, not a headline glow Not another fake “you got this” from people who don’t know I want quiet that don’t feel like a grave I want life to stop hurting every time I’m brave [Pre-Chorus] Some nights I don’t know what I’m asking for A closed door or a better door I just know I can’t keep living like this Half in the fire, half in the abyss [Chorus] I don’t know if I want it all to end Or I want this broken life to finally bend Into something softer, something kind Something that don’t leave me behind I’m standing at the line, I’m worn this thin Begging for the light or the strength within Either let me rest or let me begin ‘Cause I can’t keep living where I’ve been [Verse 2] Everybody loves the fight in a movie scene Not the real one, ugly and unseen Not the kind where you wash your face twice Try to look normal, try to sound nice Not the kind where the bed feels deep And waking up feels harder than sleep Not the kind where your hope’s on fumes And every bright room still feels like doom I’m not chasing glory, I’m not chasing gold I just want a morning that don’t feel cold Want a hand on my back, not a knife in disguise Want the truth without paying for it in pieces of my mind And maybe that’s weak, maybe that’s real Maybe hurt this deep just wants to heal Maybe I’m not done, maybe I’m just bent Maybe the end ain’t what I meant [Pre-Chorus] Some nights I talk to the dark like a friend Ask if this ache has a point in the end And somewhere under all this fear A small voice says, “Stay. There’s something here.” [Chorus] I don’t know if I want it all to end Or I want this broken life to finally bend Into something softer, something kind Something that don’t leave me behind I’m standing at the line, I’m worn this thin Begging for the light or the strength within Either let me rest or let me begin ‘Cause I can’t keep living where I’ve been [Bridge] I’m not afraid to say I’m tired I’m not ashamed this pain burned higher But deep down under the wreck and weather There’s still a part of me saying “better” Not perfect, not clean, not easy, not fast Just one real day that isn’t built to crash One breath, one call, one crack of dawn One reason to believe I should keep holding on [Breakdown] So if this is rock bottom, let it be ground Let it be the place I turn this around Let the night talk loud, I’ll answer back You didn’t kill me, you just threw me off track And I’m beat down, yes, but I’m not gone There’s a difference, and I’m hanging on By a thread, by a prayer, by a half-lit spark Still enough to fight my way out of the dark [Final Chorus] I don’t want it all to end tonight I want this shattered life to turn out right Into something honest, something warm Something after all this storm I’m standing at the line, but I won’t give in Even with the hurt and the weight I’m in So let me rest, then let me begin There’s still some life beneath my skin [Outro] And if tomorrow comes in slow I’ll meet it tired, but I’ll still go Not because it’s easy, not because I’m fine But because some part of me still calls this life mine
