Don't Know Myself

[Intro] I peel my name off the mirror Watch it slide down the glass Who is that staring back? I don't wanna ask [Verse 1] Talk to the ceiling ‘Cause the ceiling never talks back I keep my secrets In a shoebox, in a backpack Laugh at parties But the laugh feels cracked Who am I When nobody laughs back? [Chorus] I don’t know myself But I know this ache Like a hymn gone wrong In a borrowed face I don’t know myself But I hear that choir Calling out my shame Till it sounds like fire I don’t know myself I don’t, I don’t (I don’t know) [Verse 2] Soft voice spinning Like a coin on a kitchen tile One side sinner Other side fake smile Run my mouth Till the truth runs dry Talk so fast Just to outrun “why” [Pre-Chorus] Every hallway shadow Wears my clothes Every name they call me Feels like a joke [Chorus] I don’t know myself But I know this ache Like a hymn gone wrong In a borrowed face I don’t know myself But I hear that choir Calling out my shame Till it sounds like fire I don’t know myself I don’t, I don’t (I don’t know) [Bridge] Who am I When the lights cut out? (hey!) When the crowd thins down And the fear gets loud? Am I your saint, your sin Your fragile friend? If I tear this mask Is there skin beneath my hands? [Chorus] I don’t know myself But I know this ache Like a hymn gone wrong In a borrowed face I don’t know myself But I hear that choir Calling out my shame Till it sounds like fire I don’t know myself But I’m learning now To stand in the dark And still say it out loud I don’t know myself I don’t, I don’t (but I will, somehow)