[Opening] “I wish I could say the home I grew up in was the safe and loving kind…” [small pause] “But not all homes are sanctuaries. Some of them are… places we survived. Some places teach survival. Some places build walls… Made of routines Rules without refuge.” [Screams] “AHHHHHH!!!!!” [Verse 1] The house looked fine from the outside view Four walls standing, but the cold bled through Dinner on the table, silence in the air Learning how to disappear like I was never there Kids outside were laughing, bikes down the street I watched from the window, wishing I could leave Weekend after weekend, doors were closing in While everybody else got to grow up with their friends Video games forbidden, fun felt like a crime Every little moment had a limit and a line Always had to answer, always had to prove That I deserved the space to simply be a kid too [Pre-Chorus] And every hallway felt like broken glass One wrong word and the storm would crash I memorized the sound of changing moods Learning how to survive before I knew the truth [Chorus] Home wasn’t warm Home wasn’t safe Home was the silence after every mistake Walking on eggshells, afraid to breathe Trying not to wake the war inside of me Home felt lonely Cold to the bone Even with people there, I still felt alone A roof over my head, but nowhere to belong Tell me… how can a house feel so wrong? [Verse 2] Dad would whisper softly, “Try to understand… She’s your mom, just hold her hand” But I could see the fear behind his eyes Like loving her meant learning how to hide Every thought I had buried underground My voice grew quiet ‘cause no one heard a sound Opinions turned to arguments, feelings turned to blame Like somehow every problem carried my name You threw your fears across my shoulders Made me grow up years older Like I owed you something for the air I breathe An insurance policy dressed up as family [Pre-Chorus] And every hallway felt like broken glass One wrong word and the storm would crash I learned to shrink to keep the peace But shrinking never set me free [Chorus] Home wasn’t warm Home wasn’t safe Home was the silence after every mistake Walking on eggshells, afraid to breathe Trying not to wake the war inside of me Home felt lonely Cold to the bone Even with people there, I still felt alone A roof over my head, but nowhere to belong Tell me… how can a house feel so wrong? [Bridge] I used to wonder if it was me Maybe I was hard to love, hard to see Maybe if I tried harder, stayed small enough I could finally earn a little bit of love But homes aren’t supposed to feel like fear Or make a child disappear And I’m still learning what peace feels like After surviving every night [Final Chorus] Home wasn’t warm Home wasn’t safe Home was surviving every single day Walking on eggshells, scared to speak Trying to protect what was left of me Home felt lonely Cold to the bone Spent my whole life trying to make it a home Now I’m learning love shouldn’t hurt this long Maybe someday… home won’t feel so wrong [Outro] I wish I knew… (long pause) What home was supposed to feel like…
